What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 34
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? NYC
Highest education received: High school diploma
What’s your occupation? Clerk
What’s your current relationship status? In a serious relationship (open)
How religious are you? Not at all
What’s your sexual orientation? Mostly gay/lesbian
Any other term(s) that describe your sexuality or sexual identity? Submissive live in friend with benefits
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? Around 20
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? none
Seduced by a lesbian
How long ago did this hookup happen? 5 years ago and on going
What was your relationship status at the time? Single
How would you best classify this hookup? Friends-with-benefits
How long did you know the person before this hookup? For less than a year
Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? What did they look like?
My girlfriend is about six feet tall, black, and EXTREMELY busty. As in my entire body can fit between her breasts. I am only a B cup so I get confused with anything over a D cup but I have seen some bras that said she is a “M” cup. I would say she is handsomely pretty. Not a cute look but more a stern professional woman attractiveness.
How well did you know them, had you hooked up before?
We were friends from work that became roommates when I moved in with her. I knew her about 3 or 4 months before I moved in and we were becoming good friends. No. I had no interest in women at all before her.
How/Where did you meet them?
I met her at work when I transferred to a new office.
How did you feel about them before the hookup?
She was my protector and savior. I looked to her as a protective older sister I had a “non sexual” crush on her for all she had done for me and tried to please her any “non sexual” way I could.
How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? How/where did the hookup BEGIN?
Shortly after I moved in with her to get away from my abusive ex boyfriend in her car but mostly in her apartment we shared.
What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it?
After I moved in I had a hard time not glancing at her boobs. I had never seen any that big before and I was just curious. She would catch me all the time looking and it would make me so embarrassed. After a short time, she started flirting with me. Little innocent things at first like holding my arm when she spoke to me or making strong eye contact that would always make me look down at my feet submissively and blush. But a part of me was enjoying the attention. Because of the abuse it had been so long since any one paid attention to me in a positive way and I loved the attention. But also because of the abuse I hated being touched in any way at all. So when she started hugging me and not letting go I really hated that a lot and tried to squirm and get away from her partly because her height and boob size made it so my head was being crushed into her boobs whenever she hugged me.
And because part of me was enjoying having her boobs crushed into me and that scared and confused me because I wasn’t gay. Was I? Soon, she started throwing me on the bed and straddling me as she tickled me. Or pinning me against the wall or counter and tickling me. Just innocent “girl fun” she called it. I struggled so hard to get away but she was just to strong for me. One reason I was struggling was because this behavior was starting to turn me on. I did not want to be turned on by a woman. But I put up with all of this to make her happy as she had done so much for me. Also, I thought I was just over reacting to harmless play at the time. The abuse made it hard for me to distinguish what was really happening.
My girlfriend noticed how my nipples would harden. How I would get short of breath and my upper chest turns all red and how goose bumps would explode all across my body when she did things like this to me. This encouraged her to do even more aggressive things to me and of course I reacted even stronger to them. I was so turned on that after she finished fondling and groping and kissing me and leaving hickies and little bite marks on my neck that often I would masturbate alone in bed to all she had just done to me. Then cry myself to sleep for doing so. I was struggling a lot with how much she was turning me on. I was thinking about sex with her, what her boobs looked and felt like, what she tasted like all the time by now. it was all I could think about and I HATED IT! One night I just gave into my desire and submitted to her by me making the first move on her in her SUV by reaching over and fondling her boob. Until then it was always her initiating things and me trying hard to escape before I became turned on. And that’s all she was waiting for.
What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? What happened DURING the hookup?
We went home to her apartment and she ripped my clothes off and threw me on the bed. She quickly disrobed and lay on the bed between my legs and pried them open. She put her large body between them and held my legs back and open so I was totally exposed to her and went down on me. I tried so hard not to orgasm for her because that was the last thing I was holding onto for myself and keeping her from taking from me. In my mind if I didn’t orgasm, I wasn’t gay. She didn’t own that part of me. I came about a minute after she started going down on me. It was like she just ripped the orgasm out of me against my will and it was all over from there.
She kept eating me until another huge orgasm was building and she just stopped and looked up at me. Her brown skin was glistening in the soft light from how wet I was and that was a sight I will never ever forget because of how sexxxy it looked and I had NEVER been that wet in my life! I needed to cum again so bad I would have done anything for her at that point. And I did. She came up from between my legs straddled my tummy and held my arms down with her hands. This was the first time I actually fully saw her huge boobs nude and they were just dangling in my face hovering threateningly above me and I saw how big they truly were. It was both exhilarating and frightening for me. And then they lowered and crushed into my body. She grinded herself up and down my body until she was dripping. Then she scooted up and lowered her wet pussy onto my face without a word. It’s was like that’s what I was there for. There was no concern for my comfort or pleasure or anything. I was just there for her pleasure. I found I loved that idea.
I had no idea what to do so I just lay there as she used my mouth for her pleasure. I could tell she was getting really excited by how hard she was pushing down on my face and how quick she was moving. Then she came all over me and down my throat. I had no idea what gushing was but I guess my body did because I came hard too as soon as I swallowed it. She had a huge orgasm and it made me gag when it went down my throat. I loved it but I was not prepared for it in any way. So when she finally rolled off my face and curled up in a tight little ball quivering and having spasms for the next few minutes, all I could do was bend over and cough and gag as my body tried to clear my throat.
How did you feel during it?
Very afraid at first. Then as I felt how good it felt when she went down on me I just enjoyed the best orgasm of my life until then. When she rode me I was very scare because I thought she would really hurt me because she was a bit rough and demanding and so march larger and stronger than me. Also, because I had NO IDEA WHAT TO DO. And I wanted to please her really bad. The longer it went on and the more excited she became I found I was really enjoying it more and more. The fear was still there but I found the pleasure my body was giving her outweighed the fear. And her reacting to me like this gave me more and more confidence.
How did your partner(s) behave toward you?
Very aggressive and a little rough. I felt more like a prized sex toy than a person. I was there for her pleasure not mine I loved it! LOL.
Were they a good lover?
Oh God yes!
What did you talk about?
At the time? Nothing. We both fell asleep.
How did it end?
I still live with her if that is what you mean. if you mean that night. When she woke up she road my face two more times and then went down on me and gave me uncountable orgasms. I was pretty much useless the next day from being so worn out.
How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very
Did you have an orgasm? Yes, more than one
Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple
What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? What happened AFTER the hookup?
We continued and I was gradually taught what she liked and how to please her best.
How did you feel about it the next day?
Ashamed. Shy, Horny as hell. Worn out. Embarrassed. In denial. Convinced it would NEVER happen again because I would not allow it and would be strong and not give in to her.
So much for resolve.
What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now?
What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None, No penetrative sex happened
What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), Emotional intimacy, closeness, connection, To feel more desirable, Submission / Relinquishing power, Didn’t want to disappoint my partner, Just happened, I don’t know why, just went along with it, I didn’t want it but was unable to stop it, Need to please her. Was afraid she would let another woman move in with her if we didn’t have sex.
How intoxicated were you? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)
How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)
How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Somewhat
Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave a clear ‘no’
How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very
Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent
To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? My bf. He was turned on. Dah. But he said if I didn’t want to do it I should make her stop. She was leaving hickies and bite marks on me in intimate places for him to find to show ownership and possession.. When he did, he thought another guy did it. So I had to tell him my gf did it. He was not surprised as she had a reputation for this at work.
How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? Other
Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? I don’t know / I’m not sure
Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all
Do you regret this hookup? Not at all
What was the BEST thing about this hookup? OMG the sex is amazing! Never been with a woman before or did any of the kinky things we now do. Free rent. LOL.
What was the WORST thing about this hookup? I am pretty much a lesbian now. Not sure if thats bad. Only man I am interested in having sex with any more is my bf. And thats for the emotional aspect of it more than physical. It’s not the sex with men is worse. it;s just sex with my gf at least is so much better. Why settle for second best?
Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Yes, too many ways to mention them all. I look at women with huge desire. I wonder what they taste like mostly. I want to please all of them. Pleasing a woman validates me somehow. I am willing to try most sexual things and find I will enjoy them a lot even if it’s just for my partner and not for me.
All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Very positive
All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative
Anything else you want to add about this hookup? Wish I had discovered this side of me 10 years earlier.
What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? Uhm, if you enjoy doing it and it’s not hurting any one. Who cares? If your body is telling you something about yourself. listen to it and don’t fight it. it will make things a lot easier.
What do you think about the Casual Sex Project? I think it’s a very interesting idea. I love seeing how and why people do things sexually and this seems a good idea to explore that.
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