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What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 32
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? Toronto
Highest education received: Post-graduate degree (eg., MA, MS, PhD, JD, MD)
What’s your occupation? Teacher
What’s your current relationship status? Engaged/Married (monogamous)
Religious affiliation: Christian
How religious are you? A little
What’s your sexual orientation? Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 15
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? None

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How long ago did this hookup happen? A few months ago

What was your relationship status at the time? In a relationship (monogamous)

How would you best classify this hookup? One-night stand

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For less than a week

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? I recently got engaged and I love my fiance, but the sex is nowhere near the mind-blowing intense sex I had with my ex who was black and had a huge dick. I was missing that intensity. His sexuality definitely got into my head. I had to feel it again, maybe to get it out of my system or to see if it was something I can do without. I contemplated reaching out to my ex again, but I quickly realized that I didn’t want to go there and reignite my anger with his inability to commit.

So I went online to a regular dating website. I made it clear that I was looking for something casual and discrete. I was inundated with replies, and then I picked this one guy that looked sort of like my ex, but gentler and kinder looking. He was handsome, and also articulate. We connected right away online, and by email. I didn’t give him my phone number.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? We agreed to meet at a bar. The conversation was very good. He was funny and smart and sensitive. That led to dinner. I was feeling very comfortable with him and I was feeling my wetness as the night wore on. I suggested we go back to his condo for more drinks. I made it clear that this was going to be protected sex, unless he had STD testing results. To my surprise, he showed me complete testing results. I wanted him to fuck me bareback right there.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? He knew what he was doing. He kissed gently and passionately and aggressively. He licked and sucked my shaved pussy like he was hungry for me. I orgasmed right there just at the thought of him wanting me so much. I told him I can’t take it anymore, to please fuck me. He used his beautiful huge dick to tease my face and my tits and slid it downwards ever so seductively, and then he slid it into me. It felt like a wave of pleasure. He drove his cock into me while he pinned my legs firm up against my chest. I loved the way he dominated me like that. My body was shaking with each one of the long forceful thrusts of his penis. I could feel my wetness gushing out, like a series of intense waves. I loved it so much.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, more than one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, one

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I enjoyed the sex, but I also felt badly for cheating on my fiance. I am at a loss for what to do now. I still find myself fantasizing about hooking up again, but I have not spoken to him since the hook-up. I started seeing a therapist which is also something I have had to hide from my fiance. My ex really screwed me up and now I have to fix myself before I hurt anyone like me ex did with me.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None, Discussed STI testing history, Exchanged recent STI test results, Plan B / Emergency contraception

What were your motives for this hookup? Need for intense sex

How intoxicated were you? Drunk/high but not wasted

What substances did you consume? Alcohol

How intoxicated was your partner? A little tipsy/high

What substances did your partner(s) consume? Alcohol

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? My therapist.

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? Neutral

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Very

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? I don’t know / I’m not sure

Do you regret this hookup? Very much

Why do you regret this hookup? I cheated on my fiance. Even before I did it, I regretted, but I felt compelled by something.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? I had mind-blowing orgasms like I’ve never had before.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? Everything (except those beautiful orgasms).

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? I don’t know.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? A little positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Very negative

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