What’s your gender? Man
How old are you? 21
What’s your race/ethnicity? Indian, born in UK
What continent do you live on? Europe
What country and/or city do you live in? United Kingdom
Highest education received: Post-graduate degree (eg., MA, MS, PhD, JD, MD)
What’s your occupation? Psychologist
How religious are you? Somewhat
What’s your sexual orientation? Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 1

Almost ‘Raped’ By My Crush and Losing Virginity!

How long ago did this hookup happen? Earlier this summer of 2015

What was your relationship status at the time? Same as current status

How would you best classify this hookup? one-night stand

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For 1 to 3 years

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? She was light brown skinned, typical ‘costa rican/latina/filipino crossover’ looking that had a spitting image of that girl named Daisy from the Skins US TV show. She was of mixed american and filipino background. In the first year I instantly began having a hot crush on her which was hard to resist since she had huge round tits that would always flap and bounce when she walked, even though they were covered by her long red hair. Every time she smiled at me or had a little conversation my dick would instantly get hard and start feeling wet at which point I would often go to the bathrooms and masturbate hard at the thoughts of me pounding her on the classroom table with her white buttoned shirt ripped and her panties hanging off her ankles and blasting a splash of cum all over them tits. Another thing is she was only like an inch or two shorter than me so I badly wanted to lose my virginity to this girl.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? When the year had nearly finished and the results day and prom day were announced she would start hugging me every time we saw each other at uni and when class had finished for the day which satisfied me a lot and made me hard. Now the only one more i would get to meet her was the results and prom day, which were both to take place on the same day/night strangely. The exam results taking taking place in the day with the prom being late evening. The feeling of losing my virginity to this girl would be so overwhelming.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end?  I was sitting by myself on the main bar on a stool just drinking by myself when all of a sudden she approached me from behind and asked if im ok. She start saying to me if I wanted to come with her to her room (the prom was taking place in a hotel some distance away and not at the uni grounds) to help her with unlocking some suitcase but i kept refusing.. I told her that i need to go to the toilet and will come right back. When I got back she was still there giving me an innocent smile as she always did and i finished off my drink. Immediately I started to feel dizzy and my vision became slightly blurry, i knew right away that she had spiked my drink. She started asking if im ok or if i need help but I just kept saying its fine. She grabbed my hand and said i’ll take you to my room and help you out since you dont look ok. I’m like whatever and walked really slowly along with her thinking that im going to faint any moment. I only had slight awareness of my surroundings apart from the fact that a girl in her black dress which revealed a huge portion of her breasts was holding my hand taking me to her room.

Once in her room she sat me down on her bed and she said i’ll be right back, i remember thinking what the fuck is going on and what does she want. As she came back the lights dimmed and i remember seeing her fully naked, i could see those huge round juicy tits right in front of me as she approached me and pushed me down to the bed. Whatever she spiked that drink with totally did not make me feel sexual, only deprived for some strange reason. I tried slowly pushing her off and giving small grunts that i want no part of this however she started pulling my pants off quick then she took my top off. I was now fully naked and she was sitting on top of me kissing me very hard, then she slipped a condom on my cock which i could sense was wet but not fully hard.

She continued kissing me very fast and hard and slipped my cock into her pussy and began riding the shit out of me really fast and hard while she moaned. After like 3 or 5 mins i remember coming back into awareness, i remember my cock feeling really hard and having full awareness and this is when the pleasure really hit me. Right there and then I start moaning really hard again and again while grabbing her round tits which were bouncing up and down.

It got even more sexier when I grabbed her wrists and flipped her over as she squealed, which my cock was still shoved up her wet pussy and she had her legs locked around me. i fucked the shit out of her really fast and hard as she lay there with her hands scratching my back and screaming my name again.

I whispered to her to close her eyes and get ready again as i slipped my cock out and took my condom off. My cock all of a sudden gave off this overwhelming sensual feeling and released around 5-10 huge splashes of cum inside of her pussy. I felt my cock getting harder again. I flipped her over onto her front violently to which she let out a funny squeal and shoved my cock into her wet cum drenched pussy from behind while grabbing both her huge round tits. I began heavily pounding the shit out of her from behind for about 5 minutes and she was screaming more louder than ever right now. She rode the fuck out of me in reverse and front cowgirl so hard where she was breathless.

I shoved my cock into her mouth and she sucked the shit out of it. She was sucking it like she knew what she was doing and the only thing I felt was unforgettable pleasure. Right when my cock was down her throat I released a few splashes of cum right down. She slurped all the cum down and the cum remaining on my cock like a true slut. We got into 69 after that for about 20 minutes.

I pulled down her panties, started dribbling her pussy for breakfast. As I was about to take a shower she hopped into it with me completely naked and started kissing me and rubbing my cock. We fucked for the last time in there in standing position with her back and ass rubbing against the shower glass and me pressing my cock into her pussy while she had her legs locked around me.

We both got up and out, had coffee and had a final goodbye when I drove her home. She asked if I wanted to come in and meet her parents but I said I was busy and had to meet so other family. It seemed like an opportunity for me to get to know her better but this was the last ever time that I saw her face, as she walked through her front door and waved at me goodbye.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, more than one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? She texted me later that night and said that it was the best sex she had ever got and she felt like she was in a state of heaven. We texted only for about another 2 weeks after that day and things didn’t work out.

I have a feeling we’ll see each other again. I actually hope I do because I would like to ask why she uploaded the video of us 2 fucking. Yes that’s right, it turned out that she had secretly recorded us having sex with a hidden iphone or hd camera right in front of us which I didn’t even notice and she uploaded it to a porn site. Thankful no one has mentioned it to me in person and hopefully nobody does, but I would like to address this issue to her in person and not over the phone if I ever see her again.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) Birth control pill / patch / ring / injection / implant

What were your motives for this hookup? Attraction to partner(s), Learning new things, experimenting, Emotional intimacy, closeness, connection, Hoping or expecting it would lead to something more, Thought it was an important experience to have, To feel better about myself, Just happened, I don’t know why, just went along with it, I didn’t want it but was unable to stop it

How intoxicated were you? A little tipsy/high

What substances did you consume? I have no fucking clue what she had put in my drink, but it only made me feel a little tipsy and unaware for a little while.

How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I was too out of it / passed out / asleep and therefore unable to give consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? At first no one.

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? Relatively positive

Do you regret this hookup? A little bit

Why do you regret this hookup? The only thing I regret is the fact that she had to secretly record and upload a video of the 2 of us to a major leading porn site.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? The fact that my wishes of 3 years got fulfilled in an instant all on the same day. Also the fact that it just came out of nowhere.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? The same thing I mentioned in “Why do you regret this hookup?” above.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Definitely. I won’t lie but ever I since I desperately wanted to lose my virginity to this girl after having had watched a lot of porn, all I wanted to do was fuck her.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Very positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Not at all negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? That’s about it pretty much.


What do you think about the Casual Sex Project? Not going to lie, I literally found the Casual Sex Project today and as soon I came across this I just had to post my experience here. I had thought about it since I shared it to friends but thought about trying it online. I like how they are so open and freely allow anyone to share there experiences here. This allows many other people not only to simply read but also benefit by perhaps learning something and taking back a lesson.

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