by Daisy May

Gender: Female
Age: 19
Race/ethnicity: White
Location: London
Highest education received: Not graduated from high-school
Occupation: High School student
Relationship status: Single
Religious affiliation: Athiest
How religious are you: Not at all
Sexual orientation: Heterosexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexual orientation/sexuality better/best? no
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 1
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

Bench Boy

How long ago did this hookup happen? 2 months

How would you best classify this hookup? one-night stand

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? God-like, tanned, tall surfer boy with perfect style who dropped out of school and works in an art gallery. Barely knew him, hadn’t talked before but had mutual friends and I found him incredibly attractive and interesting. I met him out one night and I think my friends dropped a word to him about me.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? The hookup began when two of my friends who were with me left us to go get food in the early hours of the day. He asked if I wanted to go to his house and whilst that would have been nice he lived too far away, and plus my drunk friend was begging me to go home. So instead I hailed a taxi and he said “I should at least take you back”, and so I grabbed him into cab and we talked a while before he touched my face and started kissing me.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? Did you have an orgasm? Did your partner(s)? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? Since it was my first time, it was definitely uncomfortable and painful at times. Luckily I didn’t bleed despite being really tight. We didn’t do enough foreplay as he seemed desperate to get it inside of me… Most of the time we did doggy style as it was easiest to get in that way. It felt odd, like something oversized was inside my vagina- less pain and more uncomfortably large. He was a little aggressive and did apologise about it after but always slowed down when I asked. He also kept asking if I was okay and that I was doing well for my first time. It felt best when I was on top of his lap, that is the bit I can remember best as we were both heated up and making out. However, due to reversing back into doggy style I couldn’t wait for it to be over. I’ll never forget the way he looked afterwards, glowing and euphoric.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? Did you discuss STI history? We unfortunately didn’t use any protection which I soon found out was a very, very stupid mistake which followed STI testing and 2 pregnancy tests from a missed period.

What were your REASONS for having this hookup? I was incredibly attracted to him and only wanted him out of everyone there. I was also ready to lose my virginity.

Were alcohol or drugs involved? If so, how much? A bit of alcohol was, neither of us were wasted but we definitely had quite a few drinks.

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it? What are your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? We talked a bit straight after the hookup and he was a nice person. Unfortunately I found myself a bit obsessed with him afterwards, I built this image of him being perfect and revolved my thoughts around it. I craved for acceptance and thought that if he reciprocated this attraction it would make me feel better about myself. Obviously I found that this wasn’t the way to go after a while and realised how he didn’t really care about me at all. I think he’s still attractive and quite a nice person but the fact that he sleeps around has put me off definitely. I don’t want to be another one of his bitches, I respect myself more than that.

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I told a few of my friends. Majority were like HOLY FUCK he’s amazing and then they were like GET CHECKED FOR STDs since this guy had a history. Obviously this story got spread around which I wasn’t happy about since I had attention but it was inevitable.

Was this a consensual and/or wanted experience for you? For your partner? Definitely consensual

Do you regret this hookup? If so, why? I don’t. I do regret a bit that I had sex with someone who didn’t care about me and had a reputation for sleeping around with girls but I’m glad I finally lose my virginity. I was really ready and am a very sexual person despite only having had sex once.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? How about the WORST? Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Kissing him during sex was the best part of this hookup and the fact it’s such a funny story that I will always remember. The worst was feeling uncomfortable during getting fucked from behind. This hookup has changed my views on protection during casual sex due to the anxiety it gave me from doing it without a condom- not worth it. It also made me value myself more and realise that although he was so good looking, I don’t need to settle on someone who uses me as an object. However, despite saying this I still enjoy casual sex as I dislike relationships, attachments and commitments.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Fairly positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup or anything else? USE PROTECTION KIDS TRUST ME YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT HE HAS JUST BY LOOKING AT HIS DICK

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