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by Ash

What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 24
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? Canada
Highest education received: College degree (eg., BA, BS)
What’s your occupation? Marketing
What’s your current relationship status? Single
Religious affiliation: Christian
How religious are you? Not at all
What’s your sexual orientation? Mostly heterosexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexuality or sexual identity? Somewhat curious when it comes to women
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? + 100
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? Popping the cherry with this one.

Boy’s Club

How long ago did this hookup happen? Roughly 5 years ago

What was your relationship status at the time? Single

How would you best classify this hookup? Fuck-buddies / Booty call

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For less than a week

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? A mutual friend had initiated the introduction via social media. I thought he was ultra charming but then again, I was nineteen or maybe even eighteen…. What did I know? He was late twenties. I had a somewhat friend/more so acquaintance that had gone out with. Horrible reputation but there’s was something so sinfully attractive about his digital allure. I told him I was a good girl, which was somewhat true at that point in time.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? We were suppose to meet up for drinks at a bar. He never showed. Switched to the bar across the street where I bumped into a guy that had asked me out a month prior. Feeling kinda desperate, I accepted his offer to take me out the following night.

Next morning, heard from Mr. No Show who was incredibly apologetic. Decided to accept his offer to scoop me from home and next me out.

As I called the reject to postpone our date, I quickly realized moments after I had accidentally double booked best friends on the same night…

Oops.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? I first fooled around with no show. I remember telling him to take off his pants to see if it was anything worth coming back for.

A week later, no show, the reject and I fucked… This was a weekly occurrence for a solid six months of my life.

In the beginning, it was fun. I felt open with my sexuality, free to explore new positions. From countless blowjobs to being fucked in the ass, there wasn’t much the 3 of us didn’t do together. It was a turn on to feel naughty until it became insulting. Shortly afterwards, I started to feel like a whore. The initial respect was soon lost and it felt more like I was merely the fuck toy of the hour, thrown out to the trash immediately after they were done cumming.

There was never any crossing of their swords. What I first believed to be an exploratory sexual 3-way relationship was actually two friends sharing a chick to fuck on weekends.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? A little

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, more than one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I kinda liked No Show but it was the reject that had the most compassion. He would check in, see how I was doing…. Ultimately, I had to walk away, it stopped being fun and my self-esteem was seriously shattered.

Ironically enough, after them, I was reserved about group sex unless woman outnumbered the amount of men involved.

I did however see them on the street after a night out about 1 and 1/2 years ago. I guess I regressed all my feelings in the moment because I ditched my girlfriend and went home with them.

Next morning I woke up in my bed, unaware of how I got home, feeling like total crap. I messaged one of them to see what happened, never got a response.

Since then, no more group fucking with men for me. I was playing out this sexual deviant character but definitely not for my own gain.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Learning new things, experimenting, Thought it was an important experience to have, Submission / Relinquishing power

How intoxicated were you? Completely wasted

What substances did you consume? Alcohol, Marijuana, hashish, Cocaine, MDMA, ecstasy, molly

How intoxicated was your partner? Completely wasted

What substances did your partner(s) consume? Alcohol, Marijuana, hashish, Cocaine, MDMA, ecstasy, molly

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Somewhat

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I kept to myself. I was embarrassed to talk to people about the whole thing. I felt like a whore and didn’t need the reiteration to come from another source.

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Very

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? A little bit

Why do you regret this hookup? I don’t regret the initial experience…. The first few times were fun. I regret allowing it to go on for as long as it did, once the respect was completely broken. But I was young and still confused sex with attachment.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? Learning how to choose respectful partners. Having a dirty mind isn’t criminal and nor should a woman or any man be made to feel inferior as a result. I fucking love sex and own my sexuality but the second someone condones me for it is when I immediately walk away.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Fairly positive

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? I think women are still largely disgraced for having sexual appetites as large as openly sexual men.

I’m open but still see my girlfriends refraining from sharing the details because they think it’s whore-like.

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