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What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 30
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? Europe
What country and/or city do you live in? Germany
Highest education received: Post-graduate degree (eg., MA, MS, PhD, JD, MD)
What’s your current relationship status? Single
Religious affiliation: Agnostic
What’s your sexual orientation? Bisexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexuality or sexual identity? strong preference for women
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? none

The Confused Straight Girl

How long ago did this hookup happen? 5 years

What was your relationship status at the time? Single

How would you best classify this hookup? Fuck-buddies / Booty call

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For more than 3 years

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? I had been casually friends with J for 10 years. we happened to be on the same sports team as adolescents and stayed in touch. She’s a rather small girl, pale with dark eyes and dark hair. body of a gymnast, only with boobs and ass. Not exactly my type, but still very pretty. Has a “never say never” attitude about sex, identifies as straight. i beg to differ, but that’s not for me to decide. she came on to me years ago while drunk on a team outing, but i pretended i didn’t get the hint back then. fast forward to the time i split up with GF and she got cheated on by her BF. we start hanging out more, basically partying our heartbreak away. she would stay over at my place sometimes, sleeping in my bed.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? one night, she basically starts drunken pillow talk. telling me how she had a “girl crush” on me back in the day, how she would switch rooms with teammates during camp so she would end up sharing with me, how she had to stop herself from being all over me in inappropiate settings. i got riled up pretty good by all this, but i try to make it a point to steer clear of confused/curious straight girls. so i kind of laugh it off. she doesn’t stop though, brings it up over and over again, starts getting really touchy. one night out i snap while she crowds me up against the freaking bar in a club. i say: “if you don’t stop – we will fuck, you know that?” and she just goes: “oh, we will.”

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? for some reason we end up changing into sleep wear before going to bed. we start kissing, things get heated. i start kissing down her neck while pushing up her oversized shirt. she seems actually a bit nervous, but the second i take her nipple in my mouth, she’s really into it. heavy breathing, moaning, back arching, sheet grabbing. she tugs at my top, i get us both naked. she takes my hand and puts two fingers in her mouth. i make her come with those fingers. after that she rolls us over and starts going down on me. she’s a tiny bit clumsy and it’s not really getting me anywhere, so i just switch it around on her. i squeeze her ass – and she almost comes again just from that. turns out that one of her ass cheeks is something like her kryptonite: i keep playing with her booty, making her come over and over again. i have never seen someone come that often again. i come listening to her coming. she literally passes out at some point. her alarm goes off at the asscrack of dawn and she leaves for work.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? she sent me a text from work that she could barely walk and that no one had fucked her like that before. i felt like a champ. i fucked her a couple of times more. then she started getting awkward. that’s when i realized that i had developed feelings for her. things got weird.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), To cheer myself up

How intoxicated were you? Drunk/high but not wasted

What substances did you consume? Alcohol

How intoxicated was your partner? A little tipsy/high

What substances did your partner(s) consume? Alcohol

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? not a single soul

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? A little bit

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? seeing what effect the things i did had on her. watching her come over and over again

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? catching unrequited feelings. not being able to stay friends after things got weird. but that’s on me.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? I actually learned that casual sex doesn’t really do it for me. I have a hard time coming if there’s no emotional connection. If I still feel like going for casual sex – I know now to chose partners that I don’t have latent romantic feelings for.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Fairly positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Not at all negative

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? As long as people are upfront with their intentions, casual sex is perfectly fine. I wish engaging in casual sex would be as socially acceptable for women as it is for men.

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