by Cherie

Gender: Female
Age: 21
Race/ethnicity: Black/Latina
Current location: U.S.
Highest education received: Some college (currently in college)
Relationship status: Single
Religious affiliation: None
How religious are you? Not at all
Sexual orientation: Bisexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 25 (male & female partners)
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

Dreams Do Come True…Kinda

How long ago did this hookup happen? 2 months

How would you best classify this hookup (e.g., one-night stand, fuck-buddies, friends-with-benefits, booty call, sex with an ex, short fling; paid sex…)? One-night stand

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? His name is Daniel & he is gorgeous. He is tall & blonde with blue eyes. He has a beard and a million tattoos. He is my dream man, I literally melt when I think about him. He is also a recovering heroin addict as well as an alcoholic. I had heard about him althrough out high school, I had seen him roving around the mall & I always thought about how I would ravage him if I was ever given the chance. But I knew that he was WAYY out of my league, so pursuing him was never a thought. Although I was always curious. November 2013, he randomly sent me a message on Facebook telling me how pretty he thought I was. I thought I had died & gone to heaven. He was talking to ME?! I had trouble believing this was real life. Sadly, he was preparing to go back to Florida. I think (he never told me this) he was going back to Florida because he had relapsed & he needed to be around other sober people. We texted off & on for months until he cut all communication with me in April. I was kinda sad but life goes on. More than anything I felt used. I sent him nude pictures whenever he asked without hesitation. November 2014 he came back home… initially when he texted me I was naturally standoffish. But he won me back over with his charming yet, manipulative nature.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? He instigated the hook up. It was the night before thanksgiving & I was at home drinking with a friend when he asked me if i wanted to screw his brains out. I was nervous so I drank more. But I wasn’t super intoxicated. Just slightly tipsy, enough to be social. He asked me if I was on birth control or if he had to use a condom. I told him to use a condom, even though I would let him cum in me. He came to pick me up at my house, it was decided that we would probably have to do it in his car because neither of us had an open house. When he picked me up, I was mesmerized. He was so tall and perfect in person. I couldn’t believe he was really standing in front me. We drove around for a little bit. Listened to him ramble about random stuff. I just wanted him to shut up & kiss me honestly. Finally he drove to a dark spot.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? It was only me & him. All alone in the dark in the backseat of the car. This isn’t exactly how I had imagined it. But he was so beautiful, I didn’t care. We started kissing. I was wearing footie pajamas (lol) but I was completely naked underneath. He unzipped me & started sucking on my nipples. I brought his face back to mine & kissed him hard. I made my way down to his pants, took his dick out & started sucking. He kept saying how hot I was & he asked me did I mind if he filmed. I told him to go a head. One thing lead to another we were both naked & I was straddling him. I had him rock hard & I was ready to show him what I’m made of.

He took the condom out & rolled it over his dick & slowly I slid myself down on to him. I started fucking him & the rhythm of his breathing turned me on so much. Again, he asked me if he could record & I said yes. I didn’t mind. I wanted him to remember me. I think we tried to change positions, with him on top. But the backseat of his car is really small, so I went back to straddling and riding. Both of us moaning and breathing hard. Just as we were both getting into it, he lost his boner. He apologized. I have to admit I was disappointed. But more than anything I was just happy to be there with him.

We sat there naked in the backseat kind of cuddling & listening to music, as he continued to ramble. He showed me pictures on his Instagram & told me the stories behind them. I just liked listening to him talk. He was interrupted when his mom called and told him to come home at a decent hour because they were preparing to head to Kentucky the next day for thanksgiving

We got dressed & he drove me home. While he was driving he was rambling about how he would love if I came to visit him in Florida. I listened, not really having much of a response because I know what type of person he is. He talks out of his ass. He even walked me to my door, which is something no one had ever done before. We kissed each other good bye & he left.

Did you have an orgasm? Did your partner(s)? No neither one of us got off sadly haha

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? Did you discuss STI history? He used a condom & no

What were your REASONS for having this hookup? I’ve always been attracted to him, since I was 15 or 16 & first laid eyes on him. We had been kind of talking off & on for a year, so this seemed right. I was dying to finally feel him inside me. I had fantasied about it for so long, I was more than ready.

Were alcohol or drugs involved? If so, how much? I had a couple of drinks before we met up. I was slightly tipsy. He was sober

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it? What are your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? Late that night I had texted him & said thanks for hanging out. He replied telling me how beautiful he thought I was & how he couldn’t wait to see me again. After that I didn’t think much about it. It was something I’ll always be able to hold on to. A dream I always wanted to come true. I was content, even if neither one of us finished.

I know there isn’t a future with him. Although it would be amazing to be able to call him mine. I know I wouldn’t be able to trust him. We spent New Years Eve together. We didn’t have sex that night. He says he likes me, but he doesn’t text or call me or attempt to hang out with me. I don’t really feel anything towards him. He likes to play with my mind & emotions. Maybe if he stops sending me mixed signals, we’ll see what happens. I’m not expecting much of anything

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I told my then best friend. She knew it had been building up for sometime. She knew how bad I wanted this to happen. She was happy for me lol

Was this a consensual and/or wanted experience for you? For your partner? Yes it was consensual for both of us

Do you regret this hookup? If so, why? No, no regrets.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? How about the WORST? Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? The best thing about this hook up is the fact that I had been wanting this to happen for so long & even under the circumstances, it was still perfect. The worst part is the fact that we had to do it in the backseat & it was freezing outside. & No. I only wish he would stop sending me mixed signals

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Fairly positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Not at all negative

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