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What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 45
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? Europe
What country and/or city do you live in? Uk
Highest education received: High school diploma
What’s your occupation? Manager
What’s your current relationship status? In a serious relationship (monogamous)
Religious affiliation: Atheist
How religious are you? Not at all
What’s your sexual orientation? Heterosexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexuality or sexual identity? No
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? Sexual partners 25 blow jobs 35
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? None

Having an Affair

How long ago did this hookup happen? September

What was your relationship status at the time? Engaged/Married (monogamous)

How would you best classify this hookup? Sex with an ex

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For more than 3 years

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? He was my ex boyfriend we had dated for two years he lefted to go and work away in Australia, I actually bumped into him while out during my dinner break at work getting myself some lunch, we sat talked and exchanged phone numbers,

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? He phoned me while I was at work asking me if I could meet up with him for some lunch and a chat

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? About the fourth hookup we went for a wee run in his car, I actually had taken the afternoon off work, we went to this old ruin of a building in the middle of nowhere
While sitting in the car we kissed, I had my hand down undoing his buttons on his jean’s putting my fingers inside and pulling his cock out leaning right over putting my mouth around his cock as I’m moving my mouth up and down on it slowly while squeezing his balls gently in my hand.
It wasn’t long until he’s shooting his load in my mouth I’m swallowing it as he’s coming into my mouth, I’m sitting back onto the passenger seat
He’s saying that it was as good as he remembers me giving blow jobs.
Even better, sitting there putting the window down having a cigarette thinking about what I’ve just done, I was really excited about seeing him again.
He’s asking me to throw the cigarette away.
He’s got the passenger seat reclined back I’m lying back on the seat he’s got himself on top of me he’s pulling down my pants down below my knees he’s pulled them down to my ankles over my feet he’s thrown my pants into the back seat.
He’s got his penis hard against me he’s pulling me down hard on my shoulders as he’s pushing himself up inside of me
He’s humping me hard and fast
I was actually enjoying it in the heat of the moment I couldn’t think about anything else apart from his penis up inside of me.
It felt great and I was loving it.
I was actually starting to come as he’s humping me I couldn’t stop it from happening I’m having an orgasm and it was fantastic,
It wasn’t long until he’s shooting his load inside of me
He’s got himself of me and he’s out of the car
I’m getting myself up from the car seat which is soaking wet with my cum.
I could actually feel his come running out of me as I’m standing up outside off the car next to him
I’m having a cigarette
After I’ve finished it he’s got me bending over my hands down on the seat my bum in the air he’s standing behind me he’s pulling my bum cheeks apart he’s pushing his penis up inside of my bum hole
He’s saying this is for all the times that you said I could do this to you but you never let me,
Well he’s sure making up for it his penis deep inside of my bum hole it felt weird strange having his penis going up inside of me
I’ve done this before I knew what to expect
It still hurts every time during it and after having anal,
Yet again it didn’t last very long he’s holding my shoulders pushing me back against his penis as he’s pushing himself up further inside of me he’s coming inside of me,
He’s pulled his penis out of me I could feel his come running out of my bum hole down between my legs
He’s let go of my shoulders I’m getting myself back up from bending over on the seat
Standing there I’m getting myself a hankie and cleaning myself up
Pulling down my skirt
He’s saying come over here walking towards the building he’s showing me our names we had wrote with a felt tip pen saying that he still Doe’s love me
It was dated 1994,
He’s saying remember what we did after we wrote it
Yes I remember he humped me against the wall
He’s standing right up next to me he’s lifting me up against the wall lowering me down onto his penis he’s slowly moving himself up inside of me
I’m holding him tight around his shoulders
He’s just humping me hard against this wall
He’s saying just like old times
It wasn’t I was in love with him back then not now
He’s finished humping me he’s lowering my legs onto the ground
His come running out of me and down my legs
I’m wiping them with another hankie
He’s asking me if we could do it one last time
I’m saying no that my front bum is hurting me
He’s asking me to give him a blow job I’m no
I’m saying that I’ll give him a hand job
For the old times
He’s standing right up next to me he’s put his penis up inside of my skirt
I’ve got my hand around it and I’m moving it really hard and fast on his penis
It didn’t last very long a minute or so later he’s shooting his load over my front bum and between my legs as he’s coming
I could actually feel his come running down between my fingers as well
He’s finished I’m taking my hand away from him and wiping it on the ground
I’m trying to clean myself using a hankie
I done the best I could I went over to the car
I went into the back seat getting my pants and putting them on
Having a cigarette talking to him about just what just happened
Saying it was never going to happen again
He’s OK
I finished my cigarette and got into the car sitting down on the wet passenger seat
I went home had a lovely shower
My husband was wanting to make love to me
I made an excuse up and gave him a blow job instead letting him come into my mouth and me swallowing it
Which he really liked,
I went to bed and fell asleep

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Somewhat

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I had felt absolutely disgusted with myself in giving him a blow job letting him come into my mouth and actually swallowing it all , having anal sex , virginal sex , hand job,
I was a stupid idiot I hated myself for it

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None

What were your motives for this hookup? Just happened, I don’t know why, just went along with it

How intoxicated were you? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? I don’t know / I’m not sure

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I told my pal about it the whole story.
She told me to stop it straight away and did I want to lose my family, she wasn’t going to say anything as long as I stayed away from him.

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? Other

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? I don’t know / I’m not sure

Do you regret this hookup? Very much

Why do you regret this hookup? Meeting up with him and having sex with him when I’m married.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? Knowledge that I didn’t want to see him again

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? Sex more sex and even more sex, having another guy orgasm inside of me without using any protection against STI, I had felt used and didn’t like it.
I just wanted to get a hug from my husband

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Yes, I was a stupid slut.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Not at all positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Very negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? I saw him again for the first time in years brought back all the feeling I had for him a very long time ago
Remembering how we had sex , good laughs together, being there for each other
But that’s all in the past and it should stay in the past

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? It’s not going to stop people will always have one night stands,
Or oral sex or anal sex,
Nothing has changed apart from they just seem to have more sexual partners now

What do you think about the Casual Sex Project? I’ve never heard of this project

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