by Meri

Gender: Female
Age: 23
Race/ethnicity: Turkish
Location: Istanbul
Highest education received: Post-graduate degree (eg., MA, MS, PhD, JD, MD)
Occupation: Author
Relationship status: Single
Religious affiliation: Muslim
How religious are you? Not at all
Sexual orientation: Bisexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexual orientation/sexuality better/best? Generally I fall in love with the girls but I like having sex with men
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 8
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? None

Heart-break Hook-Up

How long ago did this hookup happen? 5 months

How would you best classify this hookup (e.g., one-night stand, fuck-buddies, friends-with-benefits, booty call, sex with an ex, short fling; paid sex…)? booty call

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? There has been always a girl in my mind. But I never had guts to tell them because somehow it is my curse to find impossible ones. But finally my feelings were so strong for this girl that i lived together for 2 months and I wrote her a letter explaining my feelings. She took it normal, told me she likes me in a friendly way then left the country because her Erasmus was off. After she left I felt terrible because I couldn’t stop thinking of her. I needed some distraction and when I was really drunk I called this guy that i met almost a year ago in a bar.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? After a long-drunk night went with pub-crawling I got home with my flatmates. After they went to sleep I texted him if he was around. He said yes and I invited him so he appeared.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? Did you have an orgasm? Did your partner(s)? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? He seemed a bit shy and clumsy about this one-night stand thing. It was so obvious that I called him just for sex, he knew it but still asked me questions like how shall we start? What should I do now? I told him to get naked and got into bed so we started.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? Did you discuss STI history? Nothing.

What were your REASONS for having this hookup? I just needed some distractions from my real deal. Sex was the best way to do it.

Were alcohol or drugs involved? If so, how much? For me it was too much alcohol. For him alcohol and weed.

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it? What are your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I didn’t want to share the same bed because it was small and told him to get mattress. Next morning we were completely normal but I didn’t want him to stay too long because I don’t like seeing guys I had one-night stand sex around after we did it. He got the message, didn’t stay long and we high-fived each other when he left.

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? All my flatmates, close friends and my sister.

Was this a consensual and/or wanted experience for you? For your partner? Yes

Do you regret this hookup? If so, why?: No

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? How about the WORST? Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Nothing has changed but it was a good distraction.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Very positive
All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Not at all negative

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