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What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 21
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? Midwest, USA
Highest education received: Some college (not currently in college)
What’s your occupation? Unemployed
What’s your current relationship status? Single
Religious affiliation: Atheist
What’s your sexual orientation? Bisexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexuality or sexual identity? Polyamorous
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 21
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 2

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How long ago did this hookup happen? 3 months

What was your relationship status at the time? Same as current status

How would you best classify this hookup? Short fling

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For 1 to 3 years

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? G was one of my closest friends. He was two years older than me. We lived in the same apartments and he often joined my boyfriend and I for outdoor activities and generally hanging out. He was usually dating someone as was I so I never really entertained the idea of us being more than friends. But we were really in tune, our music tastes and humor lined up, and I loved spending time with him.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? The first time I even thought of G in a sexual way was a couple weeks before we hooked up. He had just had a rough break up with his girlfriend and my relationship was on the rocks as well. We had been planning to consume some LSD for a while, so we tripped at my apartment. There was a moment where the music just took over, my body was warm, and I looked over at him and it was like I could feel his eyes literally burning into me. It was such a charged moment, I had to look away and laugh. I didn’t know if it was just me, the drugs, or if he had felt it too. When he had to leave later that day, I had the strongest urge to grab him and tell him I loved him. But I didn’t.

A few days after this, I broke up with my boyfriend and moved back to my mom’s place a couple hours away. I was pretty lonely and G said he would come see me. I was excited, but still I wasn’t expecting we were going to hook up. As far as I could tell, that moment was just in my head and it would stay there, hot and heavy, forever. But when he showed up and we downed a few glasses of wine, he looked at me and I knew exactly what he was thinking. He leaned me back on my bed and started kissing me.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? I was instantly aflame. Every time he touched me it was like electricity shooting through me. He was not shy to tease me and kiss my pussy. When he pulled off his pants, I probably looked like a deer in headlights. His penis was huge. I took him in my mouth with utter eagerness. He rubbed my clit with his fingers as I sucked his dick. I was on the brink of ecstasy already before he pulled back and positioned himself to enter me. As he slowly pushed himself into my pussy, it was like I died and went to heaven. I’m not exaggerating. He pumped into me and every fiber of my being lit up. It was like my entire body was buzzing. Most of the time during sex, I am thinking about how I’m moving, should I shift around, etc. I was COMPLETELY consumed with the present moment. No thought, no nothing. Just the feeling. It was the best sex I had ever had up to that point. He pulled out and came on my stomach, then entered me again and just kept going. He gave me the impression of being extremely experienced. I’m pretty sure the whole time I just laid there with a look of fascinated shock on my face while I whimpered. I had to tell him to stop because I thought something was wrong since my nerves were buzzing so badly–something I hadn’t experienced before. We had sex for the rest of the weekend. Hours and hours and hours with my parents just outside my door in the living room. It was so hard to stop, but I was sore as hell by the end of it.

The next time I saw him, I went to his place in the city. I still had some LSD, so after a day of running around and talking as we usually did as friends, we each ate half a tab. We laid in his bed watching TV and drinking wine, waiting for the come up. I realized I started to feel it when the boundary between him and the pillow his head was on was becoming readily indistinguishable. We both started laughing and couldn’t stop. It was so bad and uncomfortable we decided to take a walk. Once we settled down, we laid back in bed. Almost instantly the sexual tension became apparent. We gently touched each other, tickling and massaging, kissing and caressing. By the time we were naked and pressed together, it was impossible to tell where my body ended and his began. When he pressed his cock against my vulva, I could have cried. When he entered me, it was like we were one person. Totally complete. He pumped into me and rubbed my clit as he did so. I could feel the orgasm build up–something I had only experienced twice before this night. I took over as he laid down behind me, spooning me. When I came, it was an explosion of colours and feelings. Everything ran together and when I looked at our bodies, I saw myself with four arms and four legs. At one point, I saw G kissing an arm with very gentle, deliberate kisses. But I couldn’t feel it. That’s when I realized he was kissing his own arm as if it was mine; in that moment, I completely understood because there really was no difference. I cried during our 2 hour sex and felt as though it was the best therapy I had ever received in my life.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? The day after our second hook up was kind of a bummer because I could remember how fucking close we felt the night before thanks to the drugs and it just wasn’t the same. But we continued to hook up, and the sex just got better. G really knew what he was doing, and he was extremely attentive. He wanted me to orgasm as he fucked me and told me to rub myself. I really, really liked him. I knew we were just friends but part of me was hoping we could be something more, even though we had both just got out of toxic relationships.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) Withdrawal

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), Emotional intimacy, closeness, connection, Thought it was an important experience to have, Intoxication

How intoxicated were you? Drunk/high but not wasted

What substances did you consume? Alcohol, Marijuana, hashish, Hallucinogens (LSD, mushrooms, DMT…)

How intoxicated was your partner? Drunk/high but not wasted

What substances did your partner(s) consume? Alcohol, Marijuana, hashish, Hallucinogens (LSD, mushrooms, DMT…)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I didn’t really have a chance to tell anyone because G was really my only friend at the time

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? I didn’t tell anyone

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? His huge dick, his ability to cum and stay hard afterward, the absolute pleasure I got from the slow sensual grinding we did. Learning how to orgasm during intercourse!

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? I became a little too eager, I think. I wanted something more and it just wasn’t going to work out that way. Also we didn’t use protection, something I’m kind of a stickler about.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? It definitely has made me realize I can hold men to a higher standard of sex. A lot of times, guys just want to put their dick in your mouth and then fuck you without any foreplay. But being with G was so insane–it was truly a discovery of the world of tantric sex for me. I realized I’m allowed to prioritize my own pleasure, and quality partners will be happy to help! I learned a few new sex moves I quite enjoy as well.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Very positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Not at all negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? I can only hope I can meet a few more people over the course of my lifetime that can make love the way G does. It’s sad that our fling only lasted a month and a half, but I am ever so grateful it happened and I would hook up with G again in a heartbeat if that were ever an option again. I won’t expect that amazing of sex from everyone, but I definitely will make sure my future partners care about my pleasure as much as I care about theirs, since I know how amazing orgasm during sex is now.

What do you think about the Casual Sex Project? I’m grateful to be able to share my stories and read others!

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