by Mae

Gender: Female
Age: 19
Race/ethnicity: Filipino
Current location: Philippines
Highest education received: Some college (currently in college)
Relationship status: Single
Religious affiliation: Catholic
How religious are you? A little
Sexual orientation: Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 8
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 1

My First Hardcore (Kind Of) Sex

How long ago did this hookup happen? Last year

How would you best classify this hookup (e.g., one-night stand, fuck-buddies, friends-with-benefits, booty call, sex with an ex, short fling; paid sex…)? One-night stand

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? I had a story posted here titled Till We Meet Again, and there I said that I met the guy online. Prior to receiving a reply from him, I also got other responses, one of which I entertained. What got me interested in him is that like me, he’s also a bookworm. After exchanging texts for two weeks, we met.
He’s average-looking, all right. But I already hated him from our first 3 minutes of meeting. First, he smokes. And second, I’m taller than him by about two inches.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? We both instigated it: me posting an ad, and him replying. There was a bit of planning. We gave our schedule and we matched the time and day wherein we’re both free.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? We talked about books and movies for about half an hour. After the conversation, he started to kiss me, followed by the foreplay. Then I started the deed by riding him on the bed. After a couple of minutes, he said he wanted to be on top, so I lied back and I let him do it. But then he did something I never expected. He put his left hand on my neck and held it like he was about to strangle me. At first, I thought he just mistook my neck for my boob. But then he put force to my neck while fucking me, like he was really strangling me. I got a bit worried that time, but I still let him continue. I remember being unable to breath for like 2 seconds. Then we were doing the doggy position, and he was slapping really hard. I experienced being slapped, but not in that intensity. Finally, I stood, my face on the wall, and he fucked me from behind. He was pulling my hair and calling me names until he came.
After the sex, I was like: this person is talking really calmly an hour ago. Does he always transform into a horny aggressive beast when on bed?

Did you have an orgasm? Did your partner(s)? Only he did

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? Did you discuss STI history? We used a condom.

What were your REASONS for having this hookup? I was not getting any lately, and I am not the type to hook up with friends so I did it with a stranger.

Were alcohol or drugs involved? If so, how much? None

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it? What are your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? After the hook up, I never made communication with him anymore. He’s not someone I’d like to fuck again, after what he did. He’s not a bad person, but his type of sex is def not my forte.

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? A guy friend of mine. He’s kind of shocked, too, especially at the strangle part.

Was this a consensual and/or wanted experience for you? For your partner? It wasn’t consensual. I absolutely didn’t want this! But it happened. As for my partner, it’s pretty obvious he wanted all this.

Do you regret this hookup? If so, why? Partly.. I wasn’t ready, you see.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? How about the WORST? Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? In eating chocolates or ice creams, I remove the nuts, fruits, or any other disruptions that’ll prevent me from enjoying the food itself. That’s how I’ve been doing sex as well. I haven’t tried any type except for the normal/softcore ones. But now that I’ve tried this one, I am confused – did I enjoy it, or did I despise it? What if I enjoy it? Does that mean I’m into masochism or whatever is it called? It changed a lot about how I think.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? A little positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Fairly negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup or anything else? Never judge a person by their appearance. Those silent ones? Some of them, they’re wild deep inside.

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