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What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 37
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? Europe
What country and/or city do you live in? Scotland
Highest education received: College degree (eg., BA, BS)
What’s your occupation? Manager
What’s your current relationship status? Husband, boyfriend and a growing group of guys I must cull soon!
Religious affiliation: Atheist
How religious are you? Not at all
What’s your sexual orientation? Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 27
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? Lots

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How long ago did this hookup happen? A week

What was your relationship status at the time? Same as current status

How would you best classify this hookup? Fuck-buddies / Booty call

How long did you know the person before this hookup? Just met that day

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? Russ was quite short a little chubby, dark hair and beard but overall quite cute.

Not sure cute was what he was going for!

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? I’d seen my new favourite Lou and I’d given him a long luxurious blow job until he came in my mouth. That was what we’d agreed on, but he was so tired he just lay in a stupor for a bit before doing his best to make me cum with his hands. He didn’t. I just wanted to fuck but he was wiped out. So I left feeling very unfulfilled and quite upset.

I went to work and perused Craigslist. Did I really want to meet someone else? I answered a couple of ads as I was expecting to be able to leave work early for New Year the next day.

One guy replied, his fairly innocuous ad belied his complete BDSM fetish. We flirted and whilst I wasn’t really sure I thought this would be a great chance to experiment. Russ showed me an electrosex toy and I couldn’t wait to try that out.

We agreed I would go to his flat on the Friday afternoon, I knew the safe words and we’d have a few hours.

I messaged Lou later, we had a chat and I assured him I’d loved blowing him. Things got sorted, so I was in two minds about Russ but that electric dildo was imprinted on my brain.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? The next day we indeed finished up early and I went to his. He’d asked me to wear stockings and no knickers, which I did all day at work.

I got there, he opened the door and quickly grabbed hold of my throat and pushed me against the wall. He asked if I knew the words and I stumbled and mumbled. It was harsh and a bit violent and I wasn’t remotely turned on. He blindfolded me and made me put my hands up high. He tried to kiss me but I didn’t know if I should’ve been kissing back so I didn’t for fear of him hitting me.

He shoved me into his room front against the wall and started to undress me. He then began hitting my bare arse. It was awful. I stood against the wall just trembling hoping it would get better. He barked at me to put my hands up higher. They were, as far as I was concerned. He then started rubbing my clit really hard and aggressively. The tears started coming.

Yellow, yellow I cried out. But my face was against the wall and he carried on. As far as I was concerned the next thing that came out was red. And he didn’t stop. Red, red for fucks sake! I swore at him and pushed him away. He seemed surprised and said he couldn’t hear me. What was the point in these words if they didn’t do anything?

I just leaned up against the wall trying to compose myself. I think he was a bit shocked he apologized and said we’d stop that then and just say stop if I didn’t like it.

I stood for a minute. I wanted to leave but I was there to try stuff out. I stood my ground and said I was ok. He then pushed me into his bed and put me in cuffs and leg braces. He did them loose so I could get out. Things were improving.

He put some leg spreaders on me and asked if I could close my legs. A little wiggle and yes easy. So he did them tighter. It was still easy. Because he’d frightened me so much I was enjoying standing up to him. He then said I needed punished and started running something down my side.

I yelped and writhed and giggled. It totally threw him. He kept on with it harder but couldn’t leave any marks and I just laughed and laughed. It flummoxed him, he’d never had that reaction before. Turns out it was some spiky wheel thing he was using.

So that didn’t work. He got out his electric toy, lubed it up and slid it in. There were different patterns and settings but it just felt like someone was trying to insert a cactus in me. It was meant to pulse warm waves through my pussy into my stomach. There was no internal sensation at all.

Another failure. I was getting a bit fed up at this point. But he then got out a wand and went to town with that. Now I’ll use an electric toothbrush on myself given half a chance but this was something else. The trouble was it was too intense and I was almost bending the mattress in half writhing around. A stranger who had beaten me was now rubbing this furiously vibrating wand directly on my clit and it was nearly too much. Fortunately I still had enough movement and could shunt about when it got too much. I have no idea how long it took but eventually I came. Russ took the blindfold off me and continued to buzz me and I came a second time.

By now I was desperate for something in me. He undid my legs and he was now naked. He got on top of me and pushed his cock into me and went hard. But my pussy was so open and he was frankly so small I could barely feel it. I implored him to go harder but still nothing really. It just wasn’t working so he stopped and untied me.

We then sat naked talking for a good hour. I didn’t want to leave as I felt totally awkward. He seemed OK to chat and explained a lot of BDSM stuff to me. Apparently my will to fight back and play up makes me a brat. But not a fulfilling one as he couldn’t punish me properly as I couldn’t go home with bruises.

He was very confused about the electric toy. He’d planned to tie me to the door and flog me. I’m so glad that didn’t happen.

It started to get cold. I said I wanted to cuddle but didn’t think that would be something he wanted. He was surprised and said cuddling was all part of it, he thought I didn’t want to.

That was the icebreaker, we got under the duvet and cuddled and then started kissing. I sucked his cock, it really was very thin and kind of cone shaped. He loved it and said women never made him cum from oral but I might.

I didn’t want another blow job I wanted fucked so he got on top again and it felt much better. He started spouting filth at me and came quite quickly with a grunt.

That was much better. But by now I had about 20 mins left. We continued to kiss and cuddle until I had to go and could barely get out of the door. He said he’d think about whether he wanted to see me again and we were very tactile grinning at each other. I just knew deep down though that I wouldn’t be returning.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? A little

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, more than one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, one

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I messaged him that evening but as I thought, he wasn’t interested. To be honest what he was into I wasn’t and vice versa. I think he maybe thought he betrayed himself by having such vanilla, for him, sex just because it was there.

I was upset as rejection ain’t nice but I would’ve only seen him once more I reckon. He was lovely but I derived no pleasure at all from just being beaten up.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) Birth control pill / patch / ring / injection / implant

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), Learning new things, experimenting, Thought it was an important experience to have, To feel better about myself, To cheer myself up, Submission / Relinquishing power

How intoxicated were you? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Somewhat

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I didn’t give a clear ‘yes’, but I didn’t give a ‘no’

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Somewhat

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I told a couple of the other guys. They can read all the details here.

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? Neutral

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? A little bit

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? I don’t know / I’m not sure

Do you regret this hookup? A little bit

Why do you regret this hookup? Some of it was horrible. Russ said that people had said they had the best sex ever with him. They must be very different people to me.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? The wand was great and the sex eventually was good.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? Standing up against a wall sobbing whilst he didn’t hear my safe word and almost ripped my clit off.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Well I’m not into BDSM!! I know definitively where my boundaries are and if I push them it’s gently.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? A little positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Fairly negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? The next day I then saw another guy who I had rejected but he messaged me trying his luck. We met in his car, he went down on me and fingered me till I came with my vibrator on my clit. I touched him for about 5 secs and he shot his load all over my top.

He was sweet but again not what I wanted. It made me realise just how much I completely want Lou, but I’m scared of overwhelming him. I’ve ended up now meeting another guy who I will write about soon, he is mesmerising and my head is now even more messed up than before!!

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