by Ficus

Gender: Female
Age: 17
Race/ethnicity: European
Current location: Austria
Highest education received: Not graduated from high-school
Occupation: Student
Relationship status: Single
Religious affiliation: Roman catholic
Sexual orientation: Bisexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexual orientation/sexuality better/best? Pansexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 1
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

Primary School Friends

How long ago did this hookup happen? One week

How would you best classify this hookup (e.g., one-night stand, fuck-buddies, friends-with-benefits, booty call, sex with an ex, short fling; paid sex…)? One-afternoon stand

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? JJ and I went to the day care center together in primary school. He is one year younger than me. Back in the days we were really good friends, but after I went to high-school we pretty much lost contact even though he went to go to the same school as me.
Since then he grew to be quite huge (1,9m with me being merely 1,65m).
About half a year ago we went to the same dance lesson twice and talked a few words. Then maybe a month ago, he was in the same bus with me (we live in the same neighborhood) twice by coincident and we had fun like when we were kids and it felt naturally being childish and not at all awkward.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? At this point I should probably note that my former girlfriend had broken up with me only a while back via what’s app and not talked to me properly, even though we have seen each other (in larger groups). It is the first time in years that I’m not happy. More so as I have invested very much in the relationship and we only got to kiss 3 times. As you can imagine I was quite frustrated.

So I was thinking about going to the beginners dance class to help out and texted him if he was there and we met on saturday. In the break we chatted and I asked him if he had a girlfriend on a sidenote. After the lesson I asked if his dad could take me along, so we waited in the staircase of the dance school. He sat down on the stairs and me as well, between his legs two steps down. I leaned on to him and he rested his head on mine. I asked him if he had warm hands because mine were cold, so he warmed mine. At that point my dance partner and his girlfriend came in (they had a lesson) and were quite struck to see us there and so intimate. I greeted him and then sat down again, further away this time.
After we were both home he texted me how he like our conversations and we should do more stuff together. We flirted a bit but I went to bed.

On Monday I met him in the school and asked if he had time, so we agreed I would come to him after school. I left a little earlier so I could fetch an earlier bus. He met me halfway on the way to his place and greeted me with a hug that seemed more like he wanted to put his arm on my shoulder. JJs family wasn’t at home, but he led me through the house anyway. At one point he hugged me from behind and I cuddled into his arms because it let me forget my ex girlfriend a little. In the doorway to his sisters room he hugged me again tightly (I noticed he had put on fragrance beforehand) and started kissing my neck. Once he did so my brain was full of “should I?”, “Should I not?” but I guess at one point those hormons, that built up well over a month took over the lead and I responded and lifted my head. We made out in the hallway (he had brushed his teeth before I came), but when he started to grap my butt and feel for my boobs I stopped and explained that I was still hurt by my girlfriends behaviour. JJ reassured me and we started making out again, this time I wasn’t resisting as he put his hand under my trousers and neckline.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? JJ led me to his room hand in hand. We continued to make out on the bed with him beeing the more active one as I was still not entirely sure if I liked where this was heading to. As he took of my shirt and bra I had to laugh a little because of his problems with unhooking it. Somehow I got scared again and turned away, making him slow down again. I told him how my ex had broken up with me. Somehow he managed to get me comfortable again by telling me we don’t have to have sex. While he was playing with my nipple with one hand and sucking the other one I was stroking his head an messing with his hair. Once he bit my nipple and I squeaked and winced, but he appologised very quickly. After that he took of my trousers, underwear and socks (which made me giggle once again) and played a little with my clit, but it seemed more like testing if I was already wet enough. He then got up, took a condom out of a drawer and put it on. At that point I told him I was still a virgin and he said it was his first time too.
He entered me slowly in missionary. It hurt really badly and everytime I thought it got better, he penetrated deeper and it started againg. As he realised how much it hurt, he told me he had a better way and put two pillows on his desk. I lay down, he pulled my legs up and it really was better, although it still hurt. But that didn’t matter because after about one minute he came.

For me being it the first time it was really awkward. I didn’t know what to talk about after he put on his underwear again and we lay down in his bed. Thankfully he started a bit of a chat about school and stuff. One time I asked why I was his first one and he said I wasn’t, that he lied to me to make me feel more comfortable, which I think was really sweet.

About twenty minutes before we had to leave JJ asked if we wanted to finish what we had begun and started rubbing my clit. That wasn’t bad but he then started jack-hammer fingering me. It had no effect whatsoever. I told him that I wasn’t going to come and he said I was already over it. I have had a lot of orgasms through masturbation already, so I told him I hadn’t orgasmed and I know myself good enough to tell. This seemed to impress him.
I noticed he got hard again, so it didn’t surprise me as he asked me if I could help him out. I had a friends-with-benefits situation for a short period of time, which was basically making out and him jacking off with my help, so I knew a bit about that. JJ pulled his trousers down and before I could get my shaking hands on his rather large dick he asked if I could give him a blowjob. So I took it in my mouth but kept my hand stuck to my lips to have more pressure and swirled my tongue around the head. JJ directed my head a tiny bit to get the right rhythm and after what felt like a minute I tasted cum for the first time.

After that we got dressed, drank a glass of water both and left for the bus, each of us in another direction.

Did you have an orgasm? Did your partner(s)? Me non, him twice.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? Did you discuss STI history? We used a condom for intercourse.

What were your REASONS for having this hookup? I really let myself go with the flow, as I was and still am very unhappy with my current situation.

Were alcohol or drugs involved? If so, how much? Non of both.

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it? What are your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? When I was home I texted him, saying that I had his perfume all over me. We have since met on saturday in the beginners dance class again. However I had a big PMS-breakdown after that and let him feel it very much via what’s app, which I hugely regret now. Today I called him to appologise, but it was a very awkward conversation. I hope that we can hook up again on friday, after my prom.

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I talked to my best friends, most of them reacted surprised, as they thought like myself JJ and I were just friends, and positive. One was very shocked and maybe a bit jealous, but she handles it well.

Was this a consensual and/or wanted experience for you? For your partner? I would have liked if he would have asked a little more often if it was okay for me, but he would have stopped if I had asked him too.

Do you regret this hookup? If so, why? Maybe a little bit, because I would really have loved to have a great friend to be childish with and cheer me up.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? How about the WORST? Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? The best was that I had my first time, with someone I trusted and knew for more than 10 years.
The worst was the confusion I had afterwards with all the stuff going on in my mind.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Somewhat positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative

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