What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 32
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? Hampton Roads
Highest education received: Post-graduate degree (eg., MA, MS, PhD, JD, MD)
What’s your occupation? Healthcare
What’s your current relationship status? Engaged/Married (monogamous)
Religious affiliation: Christian
How religious are you? Somewhat
What’s your sexual orientation? Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 50 or so
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

Ran Over by a Train

How long ago did this hookup happen? 2 years

What was your relationship status at the time? Engaged/Married (monogamous)

How would you best classify this hookup? Group sex

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? I was curious and answered an ad on Craigslist that a dom had posted about using a woman as a total piece of meat. I thought the guy was joking from the way he talked, but our conversations really turned me on. We talked for two weeks, nightly, after my husband went to bed and I would send him pictures of myself. He kept asking to meet, and I finally agreed. He was an older, average, everyday guy. What intrigued me was how cool and calm he was about everything and how organized he was.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? My husband was away for nine months so I had plenty of free time. We met at a cheap motel where it was obvious no one was going to care what was going on. There were guys outside smoking, drinking, and doing drugs. I am also fairly positive there were prostitutes there. He instigated by asking me, late at night during our chats, if I would be interested in different scenarios. One that he worked on me a bit was to blindfold and tie me to a bed and let complete strangers take turns using me. I was a little interested but not willing to do it, however, after seeing some videos he made, several drinks, and over a month of working on me about it, I agreed. He did all the planning, I just showed up in a garter belt, stockings, and heels as instructed for the preparatory photo session.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? I was tied to the bed face down, blindfolded, and gagged. He spanked me some, fingered me vaginally and anally, lubed me up, used me himself, then told me to get ready. I could hear him getting dressed as he talked to me about how I was going to get “tore up” and not be able to walk straight for a week. He left the room with the door open and I could hear people talking outside. Next thing I knew I heard people coming in talking about “fucking the bitch,” referring to me, heard belts being undone, felt hands on my body, weight on the bed, and then penetration.

One guy finished very quickly, and another took his place immediately. Neither lasted very long and as they were getting dressed I heard the Dom come in and ask what they were doing. They said they found the door open and came in. The Dom replied, “Okay, did you have fun?” The two guys responded that they did, and the Dom said: “Good, tell your friends. She will be here all night.”

The Dom asked if I was okay as he touched me between my legs, and acknowledged how wet I was and that I must be. He told me that there is a lot more of that coming as he fingered me. He asked if I liked it and said he hoped I did, because he was not going to untie me until he got something to eat and woke up from a nap. Then he disappeared again, leaving me there, tied to the bed.

A few minutes later someone came in, undressed, touched me and spread my cheeks, said he hoped I liked anal, and rammed himself into me. He aggressively used me and I screamed a muffled scream through the gag. He liked it and told me to keep screaming as he pushed my head into the mattress. He finished very quickly and I could feel him climax inside of me, which was not supposed to happen, everyone was supposed to wear a condom. He dressed and said he would be back and was sending “his boys in to take care of me.”

After that, guys kept coming, spaced what seemed like five minutes apart. I am not sure how many were repeats, but there were very few breaks. Some of the guys would mention how much cum I had on me and wiped me off before taking their turn. Several of the guys said they hoped I was on birth control or I was going to have a mixed baby.

After what felt like forever, I started to get sore and really tired. There was a period where no one came for a while and I fell asleep, just to be woken up by someone using me. This went on for what felt like forever, then finally, the Dom came in and asked if I had enough. I nodded yes, and he started spanking me with his belt, saying that he would tell me when I had enough. He took pictures of me and I could hear him texting on his phone.

What felt like an eternity later, a guy came into the room and they talked about me. They guy asked if $300 was okay, and the Dom said yes. Then the guy started licking me all over between my legs. He was calling me a “dirty whore” and was telling me how loose I was. He was slapping my bottom and using his fingers on me, until I felt the pressure of his fist pressing against my very sore vagina, and he pushed it in. He thrust in and out and called me names, then quit. He straddled the back of my head, grabbed my hair and told me to turn my head sideways, then climaxed all over the side of my face.

The Dom untied me, told me to take my time getting up, and said he would be in touch. I untied the gag and blindfold and passed out on the bed. When I woke up, a guy was standing over me and I asked what he was doing? He said he took pictures of me and knew who I was and if I did not suck him off like a good girl, he would tell my husband. I got on my knees and sucked him off and he made me swallow. He then told me to lay back down and look up at him, which I did, then he began to urinate on me. I flinched, and he told me to open my mouth. He urinated in my mouth and all over my face and body… it stung.

After he left I got up and locked the door. I wanted to get out of there so I started to grab my clothing only to find they were gone. My keys were in the bathroom in the toilet, that was filled with urine, so I had to reach in and grab them. I was sore and could hardly walk but made my way down to the car, got in, and drove home nude except for my garter and stockings with heels in hand. I fell asleep on the couch for an entire day and did not wake up until the following morning.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, more than one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, one

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I felt some regret the next day. I messaged the Dom and he responded by sending me a few video clips of myself being used by black guys and of me being fisted and came on. We discussed how I felt and if I liked it, which strangely, I did. That is what I regret. He asked if I wanted to meet him and I said yes, but never heard anything back from him.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) Birth control pill / patch / ring / injection / implant

What were your motives for this hookup? I was feeling lonely, Submission / Relinquishing power

How intoxicated were you? A little tipsy/high

What substances did you consume? Alcohol

How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I didn’t give a clear ‘yes’, but I didn’t give a ‘no’

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? No one until now!

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? I didn’t tell anyone

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? A little bit

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? A little bit

Why do you regret this hookup? I feel guilty that I enjoyed it and I should not have.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? Loss of all control and power.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? Guys not using condoms.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Yes it has. I feel very powerful sexually.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Fairly positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? I lucked out and did not contract a STI.

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