Lesbian But Enjoying the D

by lesbiannot

Gender: Female
Age: 25
Race/ethnicity: Hispanic/caucasian
Current location: California
Highest education received: Some college (currently in college)
Occupation: Caregiver
Relationship status: Engaged to a female
Religious affiliation: Catholic
How religious are you? Somewhat
Sexual orientation: Gay/Lesbian
Any other term(s) that describe your sexual orientation/sexuality better/best? I’m a lesbian but after I met “John” I like penis… but his only though…
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 6
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? Zero

Lesbian But Enjoying The D

How long ago did this hookup happen? 6 months ago

How would you best classify this hookup (e.g., one-night stand, fuck-buddies, friends-with-benefits, booty call, sex with an ex, short fling; paid sex…)? Fuck buddies

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? He is 5’8 with dark skin and with average body. What really got me hooked on him was his sexy personality. I met him a few years back at a party and we hit it off right away, we talked for hours through out the whole night. I told him I was a lesbian and he respected that. I didn’t hear anything about him for about a year after that.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? I found him on Facebook!  We talked and talked for hours for about a month I felt very attracted to him even though I have never been attracted to a guy. His personality was amazing I could only describe it as sexy. After so much talking we decided to meet up and have a beer… or 30. We were planning on going to the beach but it started raining so we decided to go to his place. There we started drinking and talking about our lives blah blah.. next thing you know we were making out. At first when I realized it I pushed him away but then I actually grabbed him towards me and started kissing him again.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? We didn’t get to have sex the first night because.. well.. it just never got to that.. so we kept meeting up here and there maybe 3 times a month. Couldn’t do it more often because I was/am in a relationship with my fiancee who happens to be a woman. Well she started getting suspicious… but I didn’t care I kept going over to his house and we would just talk and makeout and then finally after about 3 months of being weirdos and not having sex.. we started to have sex one night. It started with us watching porn and then he asked if I could suck his dick. At first I was a little thrown off by it but then.. I told him I would if he taught me how to do it. So he tried the best he could and well I got to it! Let me just say it was my first time sucking dick.. and I really enjoyed it! He then started rubbing my pussy while I was sucking his dick.. it felt amazing! He made me stop and started sucking on my tits and I dont think any women ive been with have ever made me feel this good. We then started fucking.. I was on the bottom with my legs over his shoulders.. it hurt at first but its a very enjoyable pain.. I started moaning and I loved it! We then finished and cuddled.

Did you have an orgasm? Did your partner(s)? We both had amazing orgasms. I had to finish him up with oral sex and then he came in my mouth and I took it like a shot. He seemed to really like that..

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? Did you discuss STI history? Condom

What were your REASONS for having this hookup? I had always wanted to have sex with a guy but I was not sexually attracted to any men.. other than him.

Were alcohol or drugs involved? If so, how much? Yes.. alooooot of beer.. maybe about 50 beers. Lets just say I’m a crazy drinker that can hang because I had 2/3 of all that beer but I remember every little detail.

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it? What are your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? We had sex three more times and then I decided to stop because I knew I was catching feelings for him. I remember asking him where we were going and he said just friends with benefits. I really wanted a relationship with this man. But now I found out he Is a casanova/player. He knows exactly what to tell women to loosen them downstairs. He is always calling me so we can hangout and I always make excuses because I don’t wanna catch more feelings than I already did. He has told me that he misses me a lot and I feel like its just part of his plan to get me to have sex with him again, but he has 10+ women on the side. So idk.

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I talked about it with my sister. She thought it sounded fun but she felt bad for me for catching feelings for him…

Was this a consensual and/or wanted experience for you? For your partner? Yeah. I feel fulfilled now.

Do you regret this hookup? If so, why? The only reason I kinda do is because I stupidly thought me and him could actually be more than just fuck buddies. And also because I hurt my fiance when I told her about it.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? How about the WORST? Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Best thing was that I actually got to enjoy dick! And the worst is the whole feelings shit.. I wish I could still be having sex with him because I fantasize about him.  But I don’t want to hurt myself anymore. 
After this I thought hmmm maybe I’m bisexual after all.. but.. I haven’t really felt attracted to a person with a penis before and I honestly don’t think I ever will.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Somewhat positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup or anything else? If you have a fuck buddy try not to get into depth in your conversations. Don’t go in with an open heart because catching feelings for someone who wants nothing more than sex from you HURTS.

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