More Than a Feeling



What’s your gender? Man
How old are you? 53
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? Western United States
Highest education received: Post-graduate degree (eg., MA, MS, PhD, JD, MD)
What’s your occupation? Private Business Owner
What’s your current relationship status? Sexless Marriage
What’s your sexual orientation? Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 12
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

More Than a Feeling

How long ago did this hookup happen? 1 year ago

What was your relationship status at the time? Same as current status

How would you best classify this hookup? Friends-with-benefits

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For more than 3 years

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? Mairi is 5’5″ tall, shoulder length blonde hair with hazel eyes. She has very large breasts, about a 44D and though not skinny, she is not really fat, just wonderfully and sexually curvy. She is sharp-witted, humorous and great with people. She is 33, twenty years younger than me and I have known Mairi for over 10 years now. She is married with two kids, loves her husband and family.

We have never hooked up but there has always been a sexual tension and sexual joking between us. About half of the time this is done with my wife present. For example, Mairi once told us when we were playing a game with her that she had thought about me while taking a shower . . . and that was it. I looked at Mairi and said, “You thought of me in the shower?” Mairi said “Yep and it was very hot and steamy.” while she winked at me (she was trying to help me solve a problem but she has never lived that down).

My wife knows that Mairi really, REALLY likes me and suspects I have romantic feelings for her as well. When we are alone which happens, we will tease each other about sex, and often become serious and hint about wanting to make love together. Mairi has told me twice in the last six months before the hook up “You know, I really, and I mean really, do care for you John” and another time I teased her about dying and we were alone and she said “Don’t kid about that. I would be devastated. I mean, I really love you and care for you.” I answered “Really” and Mairi looked at me and said, “Yeah, I am deadly serious.”

So there you go, there is and always has been an underlying sexual tension between us and we deeply care for each other to the point that yes, we love each other.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? We were with Mairi one day with her 4-year-old and my wife told Mairi that she had a two-week business trip coming up. Mairi replied that she would check up on me to make sure I stayed out of trouble and did the housework. My wife laughed and said “Good luck with that, but you can try.” That was the end of it and we enjoyed the Zoo the rest of the afternoon, and then dinner together.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? Well, the day came and my wife left on a Sunday afternoon. I indeed was alone as my two children are adults and live on their own now. I enjoyed my Sunday afternoon and evening and the quiet I had and went to work on Monday and Tuesday. I woke up early on Wednesday morning, worked out, and then noticed a text from Mairi. “I’m coming by in an hour before you leave for the day.” was what it said. The house was clean, and when Mairi showed up, she was alone with no kids. I watched her walk up to the door and that old longing to make love to her tugged at my heart. I watched her wonderful breasts as she came up the walk since I was holding the main door open. Up she came, opening the glass door and then coming inside.

I shut the main door and said “Hi” to Mairi. She looked at me and said, “Back at you.” She then looked at the kitchen and walked around the house and I followed. The last place she inspected was the master bedroom and I hadn’t made the bed. “I see you’re not a bed maker.” “Guess not” was my reply. Then in a flash, Mairi turned around and hugged me. She looked up from my chest and I looked into her eyes. She moved her mouth toward mine and I responded. Our lips met and we held that kiss for a long moment. Then her tongue pushed against my lips and I opened up my mouth.

Now we began to make out and after several minutes Mairi said, “I have always wanted to mess up your bed with you.” She smiled and I did also and then asked, “Are you sure?” Mairi knew of my sexless marriage and that I longed to be held, to be touched and caressed, to feel a woman naked next to me. She knew I loved my wife and that is why I hadn’t cheated in the past. Mairi said, “Let me make you happy.” She then kissed me and her hands pulled off my tee shirt leaving me naked from the waist up. I removed her shirt, and for the first time saw her bra. That came off easily and as we continued to make out, I saw how big those boobs really were and her nipples were hard, sticking straight up and calling to me.

I took one of my hands to her right boob and caressed and gently squeezed it. I moistened my index finger and fingertips and my thumb with saliva and started to play with her nipples. Mairi now removed my sports pants, and my boxers (I had no socks on). I was naked and my dick was hard, just over 7 inches in length and a diameter of 6 to 6/1/2 inches. Maria felt my dick with her hand and fitted her hand around it. “I can work with that!” she said.

I know kissed Mairi down her neck to her right boob and began to suck on it. I kissed and sucked all around that large boob ending up on her erect and hard tit. I started to suck on that and I got my first moan from Mairi. “Yeah, keep going.” I moved her to the bed, and we got on top of the covers. I continued to enjoy both breasts and nipples, sucking and kissing them, going back and forth to each one. Mairi rubbed my hair and played with it and I moved my hand down her navel, to her pubic hair and then down to her pussy. I rubbed my hand along her pussy area and Mairi was soaked with wetness. She spread her legs and I kissed off her boobs, down her torso, and came to her right inner thigh.

There I began to kiss and run my tongue on her inner right thigh. I drew close to her pussy area, then moved back to her thigh. I did this several times and finally to make her point, Mairi spread her legs and her hands took my hair and moved me to her pussy area. I began to lick and kiss her pussy lips, working up and down each side, and moving slowly toward her pussy hole. I finally arrived and by now Mairi was not only soaked but moaning. and panting with her breath. “I’ve never had a man lick me,” she said and with that, I licked her pussy and went for her pussy hole. I inserted my tongue into her pussy making it hard and she shuddered when my tongue entered. I licked and thrust my tongue inside of her pussy and then would work up to her clit.

At the 7 o’clock position, I found that was her sensitive area on her clit. I gently used the pressure of my tongue to excite Mairi, and then kissed her clit there and gently I sucked on it, careful to arouse her without causing pain. Her clit popped out of its hood after several minutes and I kissed, sucked and blew air on it, making Mairi go wild. She lifted her ass up in the air four times and on the fifth, she shot a stream onto my chest and screamed in pleasure.

As he ass came to the bed and she laid on the bed, enjoying immensely her orgasms, I drew up on her and brought my hard dick to her pussy hole and inserted the head of my dick into Mairi’s vagina. She moaned again and said, “Oh John, make love to me NOW!” I thrust the head of my dick inside of Mairi and would pull it almost out, to the point that only the tip was in and then slowly drove the head of dick back inside of her. In with just the head and then gently out, In with just the head and then gently out, In with just the head and then gently out, In with just the head and then gently out, In with just the head and then gently out, In with just the head and then gently out.

Now as I entered Mairi, she wrapped her legs around me and while squeezing my dick, she thrust down on it slowly. I felt my dick travel up her pussy millimeter my millimeter as Mairi took her time, enjoying my dick inside of her. Mairi kept driving my dick inside of her until I felt it pass deep inside of her and the base of my dick was touching her pussy hole. I was completely in her. Mairi held me there, and kissed me several times and then said, “I love you so much.” She then looked at me with her beautiful eyes and I saw them mist up and she said “I am so in love with you” and I kissed her.

I slowly withdrew my dick about 2/3 of the way out of her pussy, and then slowly pushed it up and completely back in her. Again, I slowly withdrew my dick about 2/3 of the way out of her pussy, and then slowly pushed it up and completely back in her. Again I I slowly withdrew my dick about 2/3 of the way out of her pussy, and then slowly pushed it up and completely back in her. Mairi kept her legs around me, wrapped her arms around me and then moved her right arm to where my dick was in her and felt my dick as I withdrew slowly and slowly drove it completely back in her.

Now I began to thrust my dick into Mairi pussy, still going all the way in, but now withdrawing it almost all the way. Mairi moaned “Yes, Yeah, Oh Yeah, Oh Yeah” as I thrust in and out, slowly increasing my tempo. Now Mairi joined me, matching my thrusting and withdraw, making it easier for me to make love to her. Faster our pace quickened, I saw the pink, then rose, then red flush on her boobs, and watch as I kept making love with her it flow up to her neck and then to her face. Mairi was close. Her legs squeezed harder and she was squeezing my dick. “Faster, oh, go, John, go John” and suddenly, Mairi went crazy, thrusting extremely fast. Mairi said, “Oh your head is growing harder,!” More thrusts by both of us and then Mairi screaming “Give it to me, give me all of you NOW!” She moaned and sighed a few more times and then as I drove my hard dick deep in her again, she screamed loudly “Oh Oh OH OH OH OH OH GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO!” That was followed by a “Don’t Stop, DON’T STOP, DON’T STOP, DON’T STOP, DON’T STOP!” Last Mairi screamed “YES, YES, YES!” and I felt her legs fall off of my body, her arms flopped down on her side, and I kept going, thrusting deep in her.

Mairi lay in orgasmic heaven, her toes curled as she enjoyed feeling her release. I kept going, feeling my cum enter my shaft. I was close and Mairi slowly came back to me and raised her knees up with her feet flat on the bed, and said “I want it John, Give it to me, all of it” as her right hand came in and touched my balls. That set me off and I thrust deep two more times and at the end of the second thrust my cum shoot deep, deep inside of Mairi. I shot once, then ejaculated again, and ejaculated again, and ejaculated again and then one more full load shot out. Mairi squeezed my dick with her pussy now and I shot out four lighter loads into her vagina and suddenly Mairi curled her toes again and had another orgasm.

I laid on top of her, my dick still in her, not as hard but still firm. Mairi moved her ass around to take in my dick as I still dripped cum out of my penis tip I knew. Finally, leaving my semi-firm dick in her vagina, we stopped moving, and kissed a long and passionate kiss. I looked at her and said, “Mairi, I love you so much.” Mairi smiled and said, “Was the wait worth it?” “For me, it was totally worth it. For you?” Mairi looked at me and said “More than you’ll ever know.” and she kissed me.

I pulled out and laid side by side with her holding her hand and cuddling with her. I kissed her neck, she kissed me, I sucked her tits, she began to stroke my dick again. Slowly we aroused each other and my hand again explored her wet vagina, this time using the come here motion with my fingers to give Mairi another orgasm. By now I was ready again to make love to her. Mairi kissed me and then moved into the middle of the bed, leaned downward face forward the palms of her hand supporting her, her knees bent and supporting her. I had never done it doggie style and I told Mairi that. “Just make love to me John and shut up.” I approached her, my dick hard and erect sticking straight out. Her right hand took my dick and guided it to her pussy, and thrust the head inside of her vagina. It felt good and I teased her, using a round motion to twirl the head of my dick just inside of her pussy.

Mairi moaned “Yeah” a few times as I did this. Slowly then I drove my dick again deep inside of that wonderful and lush pussy. “Faster” Mairi moaned. So I increased my pace for a good minute, and then slowed down the pace and alternated between going fast for thirty seconds or so, and then slowly driving it in her. Mairi moaned again, “You’re so damn good” and her ass started to pull and push my dick inside of her. I felt her pussy muscles pulling my dick in and pushing it out.

Now I decided to give Mairi a treat. I started to push in really far and deep and then withdraw again. Faster I went, and Mairi began to breathe hard and labored like she was running a race. I kept thrusting in and out, keep a really fast pace up and Mairi responded. I thrust deep and Mairi screamed, “RIGHT THERE!” I withdrew my dick only very slightly and drove in again. Mairi screamed louder “YES, AGAIN” and I kept that up and each time it turned her on. I was playing with her boobs and tits as they hung down as I fucked her and suddenly Mairi collapsed onto her stomach and moaned in pleasure. Another orgasm for her.

I kept my dick screwing her pussy. It felt so great to be with Mairi. She took a few minutes to settle down and I had to stop thrusting so hard and just push in and out slightly. Suddenly she grabbed my dick and pulled it out. She had reached for something, then I realized it was a tube of KY. Lube my pussy John and I did that. I took the KY and inserted it inside of her pussy and on the outside. The Mairi grabbed the tube and put a large amount on my dick and then she put some on her asshole. I looked at her. I have NEVER made love to a woman’s ass before. “It’s clean,” Mairi said. “I cleaned it before I came over. Please try it for me.”

Well, that took a moment but I figured there is a first time for everything. I moved my dick to her ass and rubbed it up and down her crack several times. Mairi said “Yeah, I like how you feel. You’re so great!” I then moved my dick to her asshole and slowly I shoved in the head, and then the shaft followed until I went about 3/4 the length of my dick before Mairi said stop there. “Now GO!” Mairi ordered. I began to pull out and thrust in again slowly per Mairi instructions. Mairi instantly started moaning again. “That is awesome!” followed by “More.” I kept it up, using the doggie style position and kept fucking her ass. I kept up a slow and methodical pace, allowing Mairi to enjoy the anal penetration. The lube felt good on my dick. For ten minutes I mode love to Mairi anally and at the end, she experienced a deep, deep orgasm. As I slowly withdrew after her orgasm, I pulled out and Mairi said, “I love that after making love a few times.”

Mairi now looked at me and at my dick, indeed it was firm and sticking straight out and she laid on her back, made me sit on her stomach area, and she grabbed my dick and placed it between her two boobs. Then she used her hands and brought her boobs together with my dick in between them and she said, “Move it back and forth.” I did and with the lube still on my dick, it felt great. “Make love to my boobies John!” I did this for a few minutes and then as good as that was, I wanted my cum inside of Mairi.

I moved back down her body, Mairi spread her legs and with no assistance, my dick easily entered Mairi’s vagina. Mairi’s pussy was still very lubed and moist with her own bodily fluids. I drove down deep into Mairi and withdrew rapidly and keep that fast pace up. Mairi again wrapped her legs around me and let me go at my pace. Her own thrusting again matched mine and after five minutes, I felt my cum ready in my dick, Mairi said “I’m ready” and I thrust hard and deep inside her pussy. Mairi again responded with “Oh! OH! OH! OH! YEAH!! YEAH!!! YEAH!!! and hard breathing. I screamed out as I shot my load into Mairi’s pussy again and again, over and over and again. I felt three more shorter ejaculations shoot into Mairi as she squeezed hard and moaned “YES, YES! YES” and collapsed as yet another orgasm hit her.

I laid by her side, spent for now, and let my dick slowly go from hard to semi-firm in Mairi’s pussy. We kissed and afterward, holding and cuddling again, I asked, “Now what?” Mairi looked at me, smiled and said, “For now, lovers, best friends with lots of benefits” Then she said, “In time, I hope more than that and we can be together.” Mairi then looked at me and said “No matter what, we are making love every day until your wife comes home and figuring out how to make love at least twice a week and more if possible. I love you, John.” My reply was “I love you Mairi” and then I kissed her, agreeing with her plans.

We made love that afternoon again, three more times, once missionary position, once doggie style anal sex again and once doggie style intercourse. That night we did Mairi on top and that drove her mad. The next day we couldn’t spend the entire day together so a missionary position at my house in the morning and then again that evening (Mairi works in Car Sales and is a manager and works at night).

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, more than one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now?  Mairi and I are happy, very happy and love our sex life together. Our passion for each other shows in the bed when we are making love. I never hoped to get this far with Mairi nor she with me and we are very very close, soul mates to each other. I want her in my life and she wants me in her life. For now, the relationship is closed and no one knows. Mairi is done now that she has two children and her husband is fixed and I am fixed and she knew that so no condoms. Mairi hates condoms and we aren’t sleeping with anyone else, just each other. Someday we may marry, though age is a concern for me but not for her.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), Learning new things, experimenting, Emotional intimacy, closeness, connection, Hoping or expecting it would lead to something more, We are in love with each other

How intoxicated were you? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? No one

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? I didn’t tell anyone

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? We finally admitted our attraction, sexually, emotionally, mentally and without hesitation, we acted on it. For the first time in a long time, we both feel so fulfilled and sexually content.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? That I have to cheat on my wife but I can’t live in a world with no caressing, no intimacy, no sexual intimacy and connection. I need the presence of another human being, female, in my life to provide these things. Mairi is it.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? It hasn’t. If it wasn’t Mairi it wouldn’t have been anyone. The mere fact I have been sexually and mentally attracted to Mairi for 8 years before acting on it, showed my respect for her. Now though, with Mairi, I have no problem making love together and having sex outside of marriage. Our marriage partners don’t cut it for either of us and our emotional connection and love for each other enhances the casual sex we started with and moved on into a more long terms sexual and love affair.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Very positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Not at all negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? Nope

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? There is a time for fidelity, there is a time when one’s needs need to be meant. Accepting a lover when sexually a marriage is dead but in other ways is still functioning is fine I think.

What do you think about the Casual Sex Project? Interesting

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