Agonizing & Beautiful Sex

by honeydrop

What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 19
What’s your race/ethnicity? Southeast Asian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? USA
Highest education received: Some college (currently in college)
What’s your occupation? Student
What’s your current relationship status? Single
Religious affiliation: Buddhist
How religious are you? A little
What’s your sexual orientation? Mostly heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 10
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

Agonizing & Beautiful Sex

How long ago did this hookup happen? two weeks

What was your relationship status at the time? Single

How would you best classify this hookup? Fuck-buddies / Booty call

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For less than a month

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? My fuck buddy was a tall and fit Hispanic guy, very attractive and athletic. He’s a college student like me. We met at school. I have a crush on him but I don’t think he considers me girlfriend material.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? We’d been hooking up about twice a week for a month. Sometimes I would stay afterward and watch a movie with him or just talk, but the main reason we meet up is to have sex.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? This particular encounter, he was very touchy and cuddly. He held me for a long time before we started kissing/foreplay, just stroking my hair and back. He eventually started playing with my pussy and then fingered me while sucking on my tits. I started kissing his chest and going down on him, he told me that he missed me and was way more vocal than he’d ever been. Then we fucked really hard. First in missionary, with him holding my legs together and in the air. Then he said “wrap your legs around me and hold onto my neck” and fucked me standing up. That was fun but what felt crazy good, and made me come, was when he hit it from behind and pulled on my hair while kissing my neck. Finally I rode him until we came, alternating between grinding and bouncing. The whole time, we kissed a lot and he choked me and put his fingers in mouth. I like his hands and fingers. They turn me on. He likes when I suck and bite on his neck, lips, and nipples.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, more than one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, one

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? We were both dripping with sweat and decided to shower together. Then we talked and cuddled for over two hours. He gave me a back massage. I hoped he might have feelings for me but we hooked up again about a week later and it wasn’t the same. He asked me if I “wanted to keep doing this throughout the summer”, and I told him I’m not really sure. We haven’t talked for over a week.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) IUD (Intrauterine device)

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), Hoping or expecting it would lead to something more, To feel more desirable

How intoxicated were you? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? My friends. They don’t think I should actively pursue him as a boyfriend and just enjoy what we have/go with the flow.

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? Relatively positive

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? A little bit

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? I came twice and my partner was the most vulnerable he’d ever been with me.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? My unrequited feelings grew even more

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Casual sex for me can be emotionally messier than I want it to be

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? A little positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? Very bittersweet

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? Should not be stigmatized; women shouldn’t be shamed for engaging in casual sex

What do you think about the Casual Sex Project? Awesome!

You have a hookup story to share? Submit it here!