Alcoholic Bloody Nightmare

by Bloody Mary

Gender: Female
Race/ethnicity: Hispanic
Current location: US
Highest education received: Some college (currently in college)
Relationship status: Married
Religious affiliation: Atheist
How religious are you? Not at all
Sexual orientation: Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? Five
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? Just this story.

Alcoholic bloody nightmare

How long ago did this hookup happen? Months and months ago.

How would you best classify this hookup? A drunken mess

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? This person is a regular Joe Schmo. Asides from all the great talk he gives, there’s nothing super interesting about him. I met him a long time ago in high school. I actually lost my virginity to him, but never dated. What makes this person so significant in my life is the fact that this is the only person that I don’t like but crave desperately. I don’t like the way they dress, the things they like, the type of person they are, and I actually kind of think they’re ugly. However, I am weak for this person when it comes to sex — no matter how lame it may be. The moment this guy appears in my life or is in close proximity of me, my vagina becomes Niagara Falls’ twin sister.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? I’d like to think that it began on the internet. I never cut ties after I got married, and never thought to do so either. I was so busy building a family, as well, so I never thought of rekindling any old flame between the two of us. However, from one day to another things changed within my marriage. Things began to get really ugly and aggressive and I decided to leave in order to breathe. I picked up my things spontaneously and left my husband. Although I felt sure of my decision, I quickly became a mess. I went from a very confident and sure person, to being a drunken silly mess. Throughout this entire ordeal, Joe Schmo was in the back of my mind, so we remained friendly with intentions of seeing each other again. We had not seen each other in years and thought that it was about time we caught up. We met up at a bar with mutual friends and snuck away. That first night was beautiful, I must admit. There was no hook-up, we just stayed up all night talking about nothing and everything at the same time. I stayed the night and in the morning he took me to where I staying. He left, and I was fine with that. That same day he dropped me off, my friends and I got super wasted in the name of divorce. I had no intentions of seeing him again but sure enough by the end of the night I ended up in his house getting fucked in the shower.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? Did you have an orgasm? Did your partner(s)? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? I had my period. There was nothing exciting about the fact that all I remember about that night was that I was bleeding all over the place. Like I said previously, Joe Schmo turns me on but is a very lame lover, so I am not really sad that I don’t remember much. I woke up in the morning confused as hell, and the drive home was terribly awkward.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? Did you discuss STI history? I have regular doctor visits, I have birth control, and I was only with one person for a very long time prior to this experience. We briefly spoke about STIs AFTERWARDS, and he promised that he was clean. (I immediately took action and got tested — he is clean.)

What were your REASONS for having this hookup? My sober self wouldn’t have hooked up with him. My drunk self is a slut, obviously.

Were alcohol or drugs involved? If so, how much? I had been drinking consistently since 5pm that day. I don’t remember how much he had drank, but he was drinking.

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it? What are your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I went home and cried for what felt like an entire week. I was disgusted with myself for allowing myself to drink so much and with him for having sex with me while I was on my period. To this day, I cringe at the thought of it. About a couple of days after the hook up, we spoke about making it right with no blood (yuuuck.) We hooked up a few times until I decided that I did not want to be a booty call. After being in a long and committed relationship, it just didn’t sit well with me. I decided I was better than that.

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? Thankfully, my friends are very open and understanding. I was able to tell them everything openly and have no type of judgement thrown my way.

Was this a consensual and/or wanted experience for you? For your partner? I wanted it, I just wish I didn’t. I believe he wanted it in the beginning but nothing was right.

Do you regret this hookup? If so, why? It could have been a good hook up, but my emotional instability/temporary alcohol abuse was not going to let it.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? How about the WORST? Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? I realized that I missed having intimacy. I began to miss my husband again. It also made my self-esteem drop tremendously. Just because I wasn’t being loved, I was only being fucked. After marriage, hook ups can be a real hit or miss.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? A little positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Somewhat negative

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