Not Again!

by Amanda

What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 18
What’s your race/ethnicity? Southeast Asian
What continent do you live on? Europe
What country and/or city do you live in? Poland
Highest education received: Not graduated from high-school
What’s your occupation? Student
What’s your current relationship status? Single
Religious affiliation: Atheist
How religious are you? Not at all
What’s your sexual orientation? Heterosexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexuality or sexual identity? No
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 5
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

Not Again!

How long ago did this hookup happen? A week ago

What was your relationship status at the time? Same as current status

How would you best classify this hookup? Fuck-buddies / Booty call

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For more than 3 years

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? I had a crush on him since 5th grade. We’ve always had an on and off thing, but never really did anything about it. We’ve hooked up a few times and it wasn’t until this year that we actually had sexual intercourse. I see him as a friend because we have a lot of history and I feel really comfortable and close to him.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? We were clubbing, but I’m unsure who instigated it. We started making out at the club, and then a few minutes later he said, “let’s go to your place”. I said “no, my parents are home,” and basically told him he couldn’t come over. So instead, we just went to his place. This wasn’t planned at all. Prior to going clubbing, however, I knew I was going to hook up with him or his brother. But I didn’t think it would go this far.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? It was really awkward at first because we were sneaking to his room, his whole family was home, and I had to pee really badly. So the start was a bit awkward, but once we got to his room, it felt normal again. Anything weird that might seem to other people doesn’t seem weird to us, so we’re always laughing and really casual with each other. My partner was really nice to me during sex. He was really tender. I told him that I had to be home at a certain hour so when it got close to that time, I just left. He walked me to my car and we just waved goodbye.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? No, but I was close

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, one

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? After the hookup, I was feeling weird. We both decided that we wouldn’t tell anyone about it, but I definitely felt an attachment and wanted more. But I guess it’s always like this with him. Whenever we hookup, I always feel some sort of desire for something more afterwards.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) Condoms

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), Intoxication, Just happened, I don’t know why, just went along with it, It was easy / convenient

How intoxicated were you? Drunk/high but not wasted

What substances did you consume? Alcohol

How intoxicated was your partner? Drunk/high but not wasted

What substances did your partner(s) consume? Alcohol

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I talked to my sister about the hookup. She was the first one I told. She wasn’t surprised, as she was predicting this to happen. She knows this isn’t my first time fucking this guy, so she wasn’t surprised at all.

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? Neutral

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? I don’t know / I’m not sure

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? I don’t know / I’m not sure

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? That it was comfortable, and it wasn’t awkward afterwards.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? The worst thing was the day after. I was feeling really weird about it.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? No, it hasn’t, because I have casual sex pretty often.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Fairly positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? No.

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? I think I’m a pretty sexual person and jumped into a really weird and serious relationship at a young age. So I always felt this need for closeness to other people and felt the desire to be with someone.

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