How Did I Even Get Hard?



What’s your gender? Man
How old are you? 30
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? Europe
What country and/or city do you live in? Germany
Highest education received: Post-graduate degree (eg., MA, MS, PhD, JD, MD)
What’s your occupation? Engineer
What’s your current relationship status? Single
Religious affiliation: Atheist
How religious are you? Not at all
What’s your sexual orientation? Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 24
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 13

How did I even get hard?

How long ago did this hookup happen? 1 year ago

What was your relationship status at the time? Same as current status

How would you best classify this hookup? One-night stand

How long did you know the person before this hookup? Just met that day

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? We got into contact through a dating website. She instigated the contact, saying my profile text sounded interesting. I would have never contacted her since she was 18 and I was 29 at the time. I don’t mind an age gap but I’m not pursuing women that much younger than me. But well, there was an opportunity to get laid, so we agreed to meet up. She didn’t have any picture of herself on the dating site but her stats told me, she was not the model type. Turns out, she was indeed not the model type. I would (and will) not mind at all actually if the personality or something else strikes me somehow. In retrospect, nothing about her struck me. Therefore, I question myself on why I actually did the following.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? I met her at the station, we started talking and began walking towards my flat. Nothing overly sexual, just small talk. Got to my flat, I told her to get comfortable on my bed, talked some more, I positioned myself behind her and started massaging her neck and back…

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? I instigated kissing her, which was technically okay, I recall. I guess a certain routine started and I just followed up my normal ‘agenda’. I stripped her and myself down while making out with her and touching her. I went down on her, shaved but so not appealing pussy, I was hard, fucked her missionary, came and felt disgusted.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? A little

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, one

Did your partner have an orgasm? I don’t know

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? She had troubles. She told me about friends of hers who got sexually abused, told me about how such things are common amongst her circle of friends, e.g. circle jerks with girls in the middle, etc. I tried to give her advice and strengthen her self esteem, on the other hand, there she was, randomly letting herself get fucked by me. She certainly had a less educated background, but still it raised me thinking about myself, how damaged I might be myself. She left, I showered.
I got myself tested instantly and tested again 4 weeks later, all clean.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) Condoms

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, To feel better about myself, Boredom

How intoxicated were you? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? A little bit

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? I don’t know / I’m not sure

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? Nobody

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? I didn’t tell anyone

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Somewhat

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? I don’t know / I’m not sure

Do you regret this hookup? Very much

Why do you regret this hookup? It was not necessary and not at all substantial.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? Cumming

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? The rest

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? I decided to be less of a slut

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? A little positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Fairly negative

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