First (Secret) Gay Experience



What’s your gender? Man
How old are you? 30
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? Europe
What country and/or city do you live in? England
Highest education received: High school diploma
What’s your occupation? Warehouse worker
What’s your current relationship status? Engaged/Married (monogamous)
Religious affiliation: Atheist
How religious are you? Not at all
What’s your sexual orientation? Mostly heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 15
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

First (secret) gay experience

How long ago did this hookup happen? 7 years ago

What was your relationship status at the time? In a relationship (monogamous)

How would you best classify this hookup? One-night stand

How long did you know the person before this hookup? Just met that day

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? He was in his 50’s, slightly overweight with a receding hairline. I was 23 at the time

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? I’d always wanted to hook up with a guy. We got talking on a gay chat website, he lived close by and suggested that he came to mine as there was nobody else home that night.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? I let him in and we went straight upstairs to my bedroom. I was really nervous so I took a viagra before he arrived just in case. As soon as we got in the bedroom he stripped me naked then got naked himself. He led me to my bed, lay down and asked if I wanted to suck his cock. I said I wanted to but I didn’t want him to cum in my mouth, he agreed not to so I just started sucking his cock greedily without really knowing what I was doing. After about a minute I moved so my cock was near his face hoping he’d suck me too but he just started wanking me off. His cock was really small and after about 2 minutes he started moaning, I just thought he was enjoying it so I carried on and then he held my head down and came in my mouth. I spat it all over my bed, he apologised then wanked me off till I came over my belly and chest. Then he got dressed and left.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? A little

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, one

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? The next day I felt ashamed and guilty that I’d cheated on my girlfriend. Was also worried I could’ve caught something because he came in my mouth. Despite that I was super horny all day and ended up meeting him a few more times after that

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) No penetrative sex happened

What were your motives for this hookup? Learning new things, experimenting, Thought it was an important experience to have

How intoxicated were you? Drunk/high but not wasted

What substances did you consume? Alcohol, Marijuana, hashish, Cocaine

How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? I don’t know / I’m not sure

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? Nobody

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? I didn’t tell anyone

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? Finally sucking a cock. Loved it

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? Him cumming in the back of my mouth when I’d asked him not to

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Not really

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? A little positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Somewhat negative

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