Secret Pawn


What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 19
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? Detroit
Highest education received: High school diploma
What’s your occupation? Unemployed
What’s your current relationship status? Single
Religious affiliation: Atheist
How religious are you? Not at all
What’s your sexual orientation? Bisexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexuality or sexual identity? No
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 9
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? none

Secret Pawn

How long ago did this hookup happen? A year ago

What was your relationship status at the time? Single

How would you best classify this hookup? One-night stand

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For less than a year

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? This guy was fairly tall, about six foot two. He had short blonde hair and brown eyes. His skin was pale and he was very lanky and thin. I went to school with him but not for long. I knew who he was, I just didn’t know him personally until the summer of 2015. We met a few times here and there during the summer. He was attractive to me but I wasn’t sexually attracted to him at the time of the hookup.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? The hook up began at a party in my friend’s house. Apparently, I was used as a pawn for more liquor. I wouldn’t find that out until much later. On top of that, he was still seeing his ex-girlfriend at the time and I had no clue because I thought they broke up. One of my friends promised him that he could sleep with me if he bought more liquor for the party. This gave him the motivation to start making out with me and touching me before he left to get more liquor.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? Before he left to get more drinks, he took me to a room upstairs where I gave him a short blowjob as a tease. When I finished, he went back downstairs to get the money for the liquor and i sat down on the couch upstairs. When he came back up, he saw me sitting on the couch in the living room and approached me. He then proceeded to slide his hand down my pants to play with my clit and finger me. As he did this with one hand, his free hand reached up and grabbed my neck to choke me, causing me to arch my back and moan softly. I asked him if he had condoms and he said he didn’t have any so I told him to get some while he was out and he tried to convince me not to use them but I asserted myself and he ended up getting them. He came back with the stuff and we had a drink beforehand. When he was ready, we ran upstairs to the same room where we undressed. I was laying on my back when he slipped the condom on and began to tease my pussy with the head of his dick. Then he put it in and began thrusting hard and fast, positioning my right leg over his shoulder. Then he pulled out, flipped me over and began to fuck me from behind. He was going so fast his dick slipped out and he ended up putting it in my ass which hurt as hell because he was bigger than average and I wasn’t expecting it. I thought he knew what he did but he asked me if he could do anal and I told him he was already in the process. He then continued to fuck me like that and we stopped to get back to the party.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Somewhat

Did you have an orgasm? No, but I was close

Did your partner have an orgasm? I don’t know

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? We went down to the party and he ended up walking me home. I didn’t feel any sort of way to be honest. I mean I was a little surprised that it happened but all in all it wasn’t a big deal to me. I expected to hook up more than once after because he offered himself up at any time but it never happened. He would text me here and there wanting to hookup but then he always changed his mind, which was annoying. I don’t care about him at all.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) Condoms

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness

How intoxicated were you? Small amount of alcohol or drugs, not enough to feel it

What substances did you consume? Alcohol

How intoxicated was your partner? Small amount of alcohol or drugs, not enough to feel it

What substances did your partner(s) consume? Alcohol

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? A little bit

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? Since everyone knew that we hooked up, they were proud, I would say.

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? Relatively positive

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? The fact that he wanted to sleep with me.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? That I was a trade off for alcohol

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Not at all

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Somewhat positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? No

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? I think casual sex is alright. I don’t see why people look down on it. Some people have called me a whore for what I did but I didn’t care. I would like people to mind their business and think twice about judging people.

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