Thought I Could Stop

by Renee

What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 19
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? US
Highest education received: Some college (currently in college)
What’s your occupation? Student
What’s your current relationship status? Single
Religious affiliation: Christian
How religious are you? A little
What’s your sexual orientation? Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 3
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

Thought I Could Stop

How long ago did this hookup happen? 3 Years

What was your relationship status at the time? Same as current status

How would you best classify this hookup? One-night stand

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For 1 to 3 years

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? I had known him for around three years due to babysitting for him and his wife. I had always had a silly teenage crush on him since he was a very handsome man.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? One evening after babysitting he was to drive me home. On the way home I felt that he was flirting with me but was not sure although I hoped he was. Hoping not to make a fool of myself I made a comment on how handsome he was. That opened the door for him to pull into a vacate parking lot and we kissed.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? We had a few kisses with each one getting a little more passionate. The farthest I had ever gone was to let a guy play with my tits. As we were kissing I felt his hand going up my skirt. I was flattered and when he touched my private part on the outside of my panties I just said Mr. ____!!! He rubbed me a few times then pulled my panties to the side and ran his finger in me. I started to tell him we should probably stop but he had me so excited that when he eased me down in the seat I knew I was in trouble. He unzipped his pants, got himself out, and I just opened my legs for him to put it in. He was very gentle but never asked if I had ever had sex. When he came in me I let him know it was good by yelling Ohhh yes!!! Then he asked what kind of birth control I was on. When I told him it was my first time he freaked, telling me I should have told him. I told him it was ok because I was happy he had wanted to have sex with me aand that it had been fantastic. He said he was worried that I might get pregnant. I told him not to worry about it. If I did I wouldn’t tell anyone. We chatted for a few minutes then he took me home.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? No, but I was close

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, one

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I had no expectations of things going any further knowing he was married. I was still flattered the next day that he had wanted me and I still cherish that he was the first and only one to go all the way with me.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), Didn’t want to disappoint my partner

How intoxicated were you? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How intoxicated was your partner? I don’t know

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Somewhat

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? Nobody

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? I didn’t tell anyone

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? It was my first time and it was fantastic

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? A little concerned about getting pregnant.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Not really

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Very positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? Just that I have no regrets

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? I don’t make it a practice of having casual sex. I have only had sex with two boyfriends since that time.

What do you think about the Casual Sex Project? Interesting

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