Addicted To My Ex

by Vicious Beauty

What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 42
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? USA
Highest education received: College degree (eg., BA, BS)
What’s your occupation? Business Owner
What’s your current relationship status? Living w/ my Ex, but was living with my Ex-Husband
Religious affiliation: Wiccan / Pagan
How religious are you? Somewhat
What’s your sexual orientation? Bisexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 7
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? This is my first

Addicted To My Ex

How long ago did this hookup happen? A week ago

What was your relationship status at the time? Single

How would you best classify this hookup? Sex with an ex

How long did you know the person before this hookup? For more than 3 years

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? My hook up was with my ex-husband. He’s 6 feet tall, with baby blue eyes, dark hair, tattoos, and the most beautiful 10-inch cock I have ever seen! I was married to him for 6 years and we were together 2 years before our marriage. We met online, and we didn’t meet each other for 2 years from us starting to talk. I was very intrigued by him, but he was never the type I went for, the “bad boy”. He lived a completely different lifestyle than me. He had me hooked when we first talked. He has the biggest dimples among other things, lol he is just amazing. Let me tell you, I will never go back to the ex I left for him.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? He finally made the travels to my house, after two years we were finally meeting for the first time. During the first two weeks we didn’t have sex, we were just “feeling” each other out and yes he was in my bed, but he was a complete gentleman. As he said “it was hard to keep control knowing how amazing you smelled each night in bed”. I noticed things on him as well like how well in shape he was, that beautiful line that’s on a man’s stomach down his happy trail, and how amazingly it shape he was, it was to die for.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? Our first hook up was me straddling him and us just messing around. Now mind you, we were adults, but we were in full make out mode. He started kissing my neck, I kissed his, we kissed on the lips, and it just felt amazing. I could feel his cock getting hard between my legs and I could feel his excitement, and I wanted more. He started on my breasts, touching them, kissing them, and then my nipples. His tongue was just out of this world with what he could do with it. It was seriously nothing I ever felt before. The way he touched and sucked and the nibbles inbetween me grinding on his manhood, I was in pure ecstasy. His hands were moving up and down my back, embracing me, as his mouth worked his magic. I came so hard and I wanted more. That’s how it started; he was an amazing lover and we got married 4 years later, but as time passed he became an alcoholic. At times, I truly loved him, and at times, I truly hated him, but I wanted more and more of him no matter the situation.

Eventually, we got divorced, he got locked up, and we lost contact. However, 6 years later, we recently hooked up again. I was in a relationship where everything was perfect, but I still fantasized about him, it was how I got through this past relationship. I wanted my ex husband back and best believe, I got him. We met up in another state and we had sex for the first time in 6 years and it felt like we had never skipped a beat. We moved with the same the passion, the same the roughness, and orally, we were on fire. I rode him and he was mine all over again. That dick is like butter, his hands are like magic, and his tongue, well, when it hits me I blow up all through my body. We were where we were supposed to be once again, and we are now together. He travels on the road and he was going away for two weeks, but first we enjoyed our amazing positions doggy, froggy, riding, oral on each other, and then some. We were in the position where he was pounding me hard and deep. He was grabbing my breasts and my hips and just moving his hips and thrusting me so good. Then I came, and when I did it was so intense I squirted all over him. We kept going until we both came and it was INTENSE PLEASURE. It sure was hard to kiss him goodbye, and yes he talks to me again now as we are back together.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, more than one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I felt amazing as I always do, but was sad cause he was leaving for work on the road for 2 weeks.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), Emotional intimacy, closeness, connection

How intoxicated were you? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How intoxicated was your partner? Not at all (no alcohol or drugs)

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? No one knows

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? I didn’t tell anyone

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? Knowing he’s coming back to me.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? Never want to let him go again, it was a mistake the first time.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? No

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Very positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Not at all negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? Never let a good thing go, just work it out.

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? Give it a try, you never know.

What do you think about the Casual Sex Project? Love it

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