Running Engine

by Emily

Gender: Female
Age: 21
Race/ethnicity: Asian
Current location: North America
Highest education received: Some college (currently in college)
Occupation: Employed
Relationship status: Single
Religious affiliation: Christian
How religious are you? A little
Sexual orientation: Heterosexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 1
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

Running Engine

How long ago did this hookup happen? 3 months ago

How would you best classify this hookup (e.g., one-night stand, fuck-buddies, friends-with-benefits, booty call, sex with an ex, short fling; paid sex…)? sex with an ex

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? Kevin* and I were in a committed relationship. After many many years of fighting just for makeup sex to follow, we became bitter and parted ways, I officially found myself under a different roof.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? Kevin and I no longer had romance but we couldn’t deny our chemistry. Amongst mutual friends, we encountered each other at a birthday party. Of course, I avoided these gatherings but decided that I am more obligated because I know the birthday girl on a personal basis, and not acquaint. We didn’t deny the gravitation pull to stand next to each other. But as I cheerfully flirted back to tipsy beer pong players, he whispers into my ear, “where am I going tonight”.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? I left the party first but even so, showed up after him. If he didn’t like that I was tardy, I would’ve left. (he’s a ex for a good reason) Kevin decided to teach me a lesson. With the car engine still running, he made me crawl to the back seat where he undid my bra and started licking my nipple as his hand went down south. With a chance to fight back, I become penetrated as we French kiss throughout. I take control with my palms firmly grasping the car seat, I slowly pull my body up to the top half of his penetrater, angling left to right but then, my hands get tire…..

Did you have an orgasm? Did your partner(s)? Yes and yes.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? Did you discuss STI history? None. No protection.

What were your REASONS for having this hookup? After years of intercourse averaging every other day, I was horny.

Were alcohol or drugs involved? If so, how much? Alcohol. We were good enough to still drive.

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it? What are your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I felt disgusted afterwards but also, special because I obviously still meant something to him. Kevin and I hope to reconcile.

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I had to explain my whereabouts that night to my cousin who raised her eyebrow.

Was this a consensual and/or wanted experience for you? For your partner? Consensual. Kevin told me he looked for me when I left the party without telling him.

Do you regret this hookup? If so, why? Yes and no. I became emotionally unstable again when I was suppose to distance myself but I wasn’t the only one who went that far lol.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? How about the WORST? Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? The best thing was the intensity, the worst was that it wasn’t the same kind as before.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? A little positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Somewhat negative

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