What’s your gender? Man
How old are you? 57
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? North America
What country and/or city do you live in? Tampa
Highest education received: Some college (not currently in college)
What’s your occupation? Programmer
What’s your current relationship status? Engaged/Married (monogamous)
Religious affiliation: Agnostic
How religious are you? A little
What’s your sexual orientation? Pansexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? Hundreds
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

To This Very Day

How long ago did this hookup happen? Almost 40 years ago

What was your relationship status at the time? Single

How would you best classify this hookup? Group sex

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? It was as anonymous as you can get – guys in a very dark adult theater. I’m not sure I could ever tell you what any of them looked like.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? I knew about adult theaters from ads in the newspaper, on the back page of the sports section. And I’d had some Playboys and stuff like that, but there was no hardcore porn in those days…unless you went into a big city adult bookstore. I went on the weekend of my 18th birthday. Austin was the closest city – and I drove the 70 miles one Saturday morning.

I didn’t really know where I was going, but I had a map and addresses and I found one pretty quickly. Man, I was shaking with excitement and fear at the same time. I had weed…so before going in, I drove around the block and got really high.

I was excited about seeing some real hardcore porn – but I didn’t really know what to expect regarding the theater patrons. I sure had fantasies, though, and I’d had those fantasies for a long time.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? It was so dark, I couldn’t see a thing. I had to stand just inside the curtain for a long while before my eyes adjusted. I could barely see the screen. Finally, I discerned seats and took one in the back row. Once my eyes really adjusted to the dark, I could tell a guy on my row was tugging on his dick discretely. I was compelled to stare, and when he realized I was watching, he got more flagrant about it…stroking it very openly and invitingly.

I was compelled – I swear…it was out-of-body. I found myself on my knees between his and was bobbing up and down on his dick. Before this time, I’d only ever sucked one friend off a couple of times. I knew I liked it – but I mean damn – this was a total stranger…with a nice dick.

He ejaculated into my mouth pretty quickly. Surprised me, really. Much more cum than my friend, but I didn’t stop. I got still and let him spend himself out. I liked how it twitched when it squirted. I still do. I had a mouthful of goop and thought it would be rude to let it dribble out into his pants, so I swallowed his seed.

I got back up into my seat, He tucked himself in, got up, whispered ‘thanks’ and was gone. Then, I see that two guys got behind the last row of seats and had their dicks out hanging over the back of the corner-most couch in the back row. They’d been watching and were waiting for me to come blow them next.

It was great – they took turns letting me get them both right to the edge a couple of times each. I had myself teased too, with a hair’s breadth of cumming all over myself. Both guys came in my mouth. After they left, I finished myself off and left, too.

How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very

Did you have an orgasm? Yes, one

Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I fantasized/replayed the whole event nearly every night for weeks after that. I drove there a couple of times a month for a couple of years. Funny enough – never thought of myself as ‘gay’…it’s a specific kink involving a narrow range of behaviors, and “knowing” the individuals would be counter to the whole thing. I’d feel awkward being buds with the guys I’d sucked off.

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None

What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Intoxication, Power / Dominance, Submission / Relinquishing power

How intoxicated were you? Drunk/high but not wasted

What substances did you consume? Marijuana, hashish

How intoxicated was your partner? I don’t know

How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Very

Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I gave enthusiastic consent

How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? Very

Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? Absolutely nobody.

How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? I didn’t tell anyone

Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? Not at all

Do you regret this hookup? Not at all

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? There is just something magical and powerful about inducing a penis to ejaculate with my lips, tongue, and throat. I know I’m totally fixated and I’m good with that.

What was the WORST thing about this hookup? Can’t think of a thing.

Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? It verified my own appetite, really. I wasn’t sure I was going to “do” anything prior to getting there, but I think I was self-deceiving. I crave casual hookups in highly charged environments: adult theaters or at “cruisy” parks. The anonymous aspect just amplifies the excitement.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Very positive

All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Not at all negative

Anything else you want to add about this hookup? I think recognizing my own kink and not suppressing it was transformative. I’ve never felt guilty, but on the other hand, I never felt that it would seem acceptable to my community, so it’s something I’ve kept very down-low. To this day, I occasionally seek out a casual anonymous hookup.

What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? It’s just too bad that casual sex is a vector for ill health. I’ve been lucky, and my kinks aren’t such that the really awful STDs ever manifested.

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