What’s your gender? Woman
How old are you? 45
What’s your race/ethnicity? White / Caucasian
What continent do you live on? Europe
What country and/or city do you live in? Burgos, Spain
Highest education received: Post-graduate degree (eg., MA, MS, PhD, JD, MD)
What’s your occupation? University professor
What’s your current relationship status? Dating casually
Religious affiliation: Christian
How religious are you? A little
What’s your sexual orientation? Mostly heterosexual
Any other term(s) that describe your sexuality or sexual identity? Self-conscious, insecure, petite
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 2
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0
How long ago did this hookup happen? 1 month
What was your relationship status at the time? Single
How would you best classify this hookup? Fuck-buddies / Booty call
How long did you know the person before this hookup? For 1 to 3 years
Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? I have known him for about three years. We usually go to the same bar on Friday nights and sometimes we strike up a chat, although not very often.
I felt attracted to him right from the beginning; sometimes, when we were nearby but not talking to each other, I would catch him checking me up; when we did talk, sometimes it seemed as if he was hitting on me, but I would act as if I wasn’t noticing. Not only is he a bit young for me, but he’s also married with a four-year old kid. I have always really wanted him, but it just didn’t seem right… yet.
How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? Last Friday, when I got to the bar, none of the other people we usually hang out with were there, it was just him and me. We had actually run into each other a couple of days ago (he happens to live very near my work) and he had assured me that he would be there, so there was no way I was going to miss it, and I had not been able to keep him out of my mind since then. We started chitchatting until we got to mentioning our encounter a couple of days before; it was like the first time we wasn’t hitting on me, so I decided to make a move: I told him it was a shame that I worked so near his place and we never got together for a cup of coffee. He seemed not pay any attention to that, so I offered to give him my phone number. At that point, he looked at me deep in the eyes and told me that he’d rather not have my phone number, because then he would start texting me dirty stuff and asking me to send him sexy pictures. I told him that would be perfectly alright with me, that we would make sure none of that interfered with his family, that I would be very discreet and I would always know my place. I couldn’t believe those words were coming out of my mouth, but then he came closer, grabbed me from my hips and whispered something even bolder in my ear: “I want you right now”.
It seemed like we were dancing, but we were whispering to each other the dirtiest conversation. I ask him “what do you want to do to me”. He said “I want my cock in your mouth”. I felt so outraged of him telling me that, but it actually turned me on. He went on “I want my cum in your mouth” and pulled me closer to him. I could feel his hard-on throbbing inside his jeans. He’s like 1 feet taller than me, so I could feel it against my belly, on my little black dress. I was beginning to lose my mind. At any other time, I would have slapped on the face anybody who had dared to say something like that to me. At that moment, I was so horny that I just held on to his shoulders and kissed his lips. He seemed to be able to keep his mind cooler than mine, because he didn’t even return the kiss. He told me “I don’t want anybody to see us like this”. I replied to him that I wanted him right there, right then. He suggested I sneaked in the men’s room and waited for him there, so that nobody would see us going together.
What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? I did as he told me and sneaked in one of the booths. As soon as I saw myself in there, I realized how wrong it was. I was going to back off, get out of there and excuse myself with him, but he got there just as I was leaving. He literally pushed me back inside and started kissing me all over my face. In a matter of seconds, I was losing my mind again. I just wanted his tongue in my mouth. We made out for a while, the dirtiest kiss in my life, with his hands all over my body under my dress, but it wasn’t his tongue what he wanted in my mouth. He made me sit on the toilet and then unbuttoned his jeans in front of my face. He was so hard that it was slipping outside of his underwear… and he was big, very big. He took his cock with one hand and my chin with the other as if he was feeding me, and then he filled my mouth with glans. I hadn’t sucked a dick in years, but he was so horny that it didn’t matter if I was good or not. I guess he just wanted what I looked like with his cock in my mouth, looking up at him.
Still, he knew very clearly what he wanted from me. He said, “I’m going to cum in your mouth; I don’t want you to swallow it and I don’t want you to spit it; I want you to keep it on your tongue and make out with me”. I was about to tell him that there was no way I would do that, but a moment later my mouth was full of warm, strong, gooey sperm. As soon as he finished squirting, he made me stand up and stuck his tongue in my mouth. If I have said earlier that our first kiss was dirty, this was just filthy. I felt so grossed and I was pushing him away from me, but he’s probably like 100 pounds heavier than me and I could not even move one inch.
Soon the sperm began to dissolve with our saliva and I started feeling better. I was so angry at him, but he was kissing me so nicely that I was getting turned on again… and he was getting stiff again, too. Then he stopped kissing me and asked me to take my clothes off. I’m a bit self-conscious about my body, because I’m so skinny and almost flat-breasted, but he praised me so much when he saw me naked that he made me feel confident again. He studied my panties and remarked how wet they were. He said, “I bet you’re almost ready to go”. I took a look at his cock and shook my head. I hadn’t had sex in more than ten years. There was no way I was ready to take that in, no matter how wet I was. So he said, “Then we better lick it before”. He actually kneeled down in front of me and gave me the most amazing oral in my whole life. His tongue was rough, but we were gentle and deft. Soon he started fingering me at the same time he explored my pussy and my clitty with his tongue. He was driving me so crazy that I said the craziest thing: “I’m ready for you”.
I could have let him lick me just a couple more minutes and he would have made me cum, but something inside of me wanted the challenge. He lifted me up in the air, sat me on the toilet tank, put my ankles on his shoulders and his head on my pussy, and pushed inside. Even though I knew what was going to happen, I couldn’t avoid crying in pain, which seemed to delight him. He fucked me very gently, but it took me a long time to get used to his size. One moment I was about to orgasm and now I was in pain. I regretted my words so much, but then he began softly stroking my clit and I could feel it coming back. The position was not very comfortable, but he was doing me so well, and what he said next was so unusual for a man: “You do your clitty and I take care of the rest”. Masturbating I did know how to do it alright; it’s what I’ve been doing every single night for more than ten years. Meanwhile, I massaged my breasts, slightly pinching my nipples, and boy did I cum! So many years on my own, I had forgotten how good it was. He kept on banging me, harder and harder, and I thought a second one was coming, but then it was him who came again, squirting inside of me (just a little bit after my blowjob a while ago, thankfully), making me feel like a woman once more.
How sexually satisfying was this hookup? Very
Did you have an orgasm? Yes, one
Did your partner have an orgasm? Yes, multiple
What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it the next day? What are/were your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? We didn’t stay any longer at the bar that night. My dress was all crumpled, my hair disheveled, my mascara smeared, so we just sneaked out of the place without being seen by anybody. We still meet at the same place on Fridays, but we have kept our little affair secret. He did accept my phone number in the end, he does text me dirty stuff, I do send him sexy pictures… and we do end up together most Fridays after the bar (not at the men’s room, however: at my place). Snowballing is not the freakiest thing he has made me done and I have to keep a good stock of lube at home to be on the safe side… but I’ll leave that for the next story.
What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? (Check all that apply) None
What were your motives for this hookup? Fun, pleasure, horniness, Attraction to partner(s), Learning new things, experimenting, Emotional intimacy, closeness, connection, Hoping or expecting it would lead to something more, To feel better about myself, To feel more desirable, To feel more confident, To cheer myself up, I was feeling lonely, Submission / Relinquishing power, Didn’t want to disappoint my partner, Revenge / Getting even, Boredom, Just happened, I don’t know why, just went along with it, It was easy / convenient, I didn’t want it but was unable to stop it
How intoxicated were you? A little tipsy/high
What substances did you consume? Alcohol
How intoxicated was your partner? I don’t know
How wanted was this hookup for you at the time? Somewhat
Did you consent to this hookup at the time? I didn’t give a clear ‘yes’, but I didn’t give a ‘no’
How wanted was this hookup for your partner at the time? I don’t know / I’m not sure
Did your partner(s) consent to this hookup? They gave enthusiastic consent
To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? I haven’t told anybody and I never will.
How would you best summarize people’s reactions about this hookup? I didn’t tell anyone
Did you get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? A little bit
Did your partner get emotionally hurt as a result of this hookup? I don’t know / I’m not sure
Do you regret this hookup? A little bit
Why do you regret this hookup? It’s totally wrong.
What was the BEST thing about this hookup? He makes feel like a woman again, and sex is amazing.
What was the WORST thing about this hookup? It hurt physically and I could not take away the feeling that it was so wrong and filthy.
Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Completely. He even encourages me to have casual sex with other people. I’m considering the possibility of having my first lesbian experience, since of my friends is a declared lesbian and she always says she finds me attractive.
All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Fairly positive
All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? A little negative
What are your thoughts on casual sex more generally, the role it has played in your life, and/or its role in society? What would you like to see changed in that regard? Casual sex should stop being so taboo and women should quit feeling like sluts for doing what they like with whom they like.
What do you think about the Casual Sex Project? I wish more women from Burgos would read it and act accordingly.
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