Mark

Gender: Male
Age: 21
Race/ethnicity: Irish White
Current location: Ireland
Highest education received: College degree (eg., BA, BS)
Occupation: Accountant
Relationship status: Single
Religious affiliation: Catholic
How religious are you? A little
Sexual orientation: Bisexual
How many sexual partners have you had in your life (including oral sex)? 4
How many hookup stories have you here posted before? 0

Toilet Sex

How long ago did this hookup happen? 3 weeks ago

How would you best classify this hookup (e.g., one-night stand, fuck-buddies, friends-with-benefits, booty call, sex with an ex, short fling; paid sex…)? Casual hookup

Tell us about your PARTNER(S). What did they look like? How well did you know them, had you hooked up before? How/Where did you meet them? How did you feel about them before the hookup? 30ish, brown gelled hair, bright eyes, a lot of stubble, rough looking skin

I was in a public toilet, about 25 minutes before my bus arrived. I was a bit horny and was rubbing myself in the toilet. I had noticed a person with sneakers had entered the cubicle next to me, and I figured they must be young because of their sneakers. After about 10 minutes, his foot started to edge closer in to my cubicle. I knew what this meant, and I was getting aroused. Soon his foot was fully in my cubicle and tapping my foot, and I began to tap his back to let him know it was okay. He put his hand under the wall and signalled a grabbing motion, so I bent down and put my cock in his hand and he started rubbing me. I was very excited  by this dirty prospect. Soon he started pointing in to my cubicle and I didn’t know what he meant. A few minutes later, I heard his door opening. I opened mine and he walked inside. I had no idea if anyone outside had saw him or not. It was the first time I saw him – he was older than I expected. Not as clean looking, but in the moment he seemed okay. He put his bag down at the door to hide the two pairs of feet. A mere second later he was bent down giving me oral sex. He was good, it was the best oral sex I ever had.

How/where did the hookup BEGIN? What led to it? Was planning involved? Who instigated it? Explained above. It began in the toilets, with the person in the cubicle next to me tapping my foot. There was no planning whatsoever.

What happened DURING the hookup? What sexual behaviors took place (e.g., oral, vaginal, anal, kinky stuff)? How did you feel during it? How did they behave toward you? Were they a good lover? What did you talk about? How did it end? Only oral. I felt great, mainly by the dirty prospect of getting oral sex in a public place. A little scared that we were going to get caught. He didn’t treat me as a human being, I was merely a sex object as he got to work and in the moment I was okay with that. He was good at what he did so I suspect he has done it before. We never shared a word, only sometimes using hand gestures to communicate, to tell him I was going to ejaculate, that I had to leave for my bus. etc.

Did you have an orgasm? Did your partner(s)? I did, the partner didn’t, I didn’t touch him

What precautions did you take to prevent STIs and pregnancy? Did you discuss STI history? None, I felt very guilty and worried about this afterwards to the point that I felt sick, in the moment it didn’t even cross my mind

What were your REASONS for having this hookup? I wanted fun and I got a thrill of doing it with a stranger in a public place

Were alcohol or drugs involved? If so, how much? No, I’m not sure if he had taken alcohol or drugs or not

What happened AFTER the hookup? How did you feel about it? What are your expectations/hopes for the future with this person? How do you feel about them now? I felt guilty as he didn’t understand my communication in time and I ejaculated partly in his mouth. He spat it out repeatedly, which made me feel a bit disgusting. He proceeded to start again, but I told him I had to go for my bus, which made me feel more guilty as he had risked going in to another cubicle for about a minute’s worth. He left without argument, and I left a few minutes later. Everyone in the bathrooms was looking at me. I felt so ashamed. The other man was over at the sink spitting and washing his mouth out – I presumed it was either because of the taste or he was afraid he would catch something. I would have waited longer to leave to detract attention but I had to catch my bus. I barely saw the faces of those looking at me in my embarrassment so I hope there was no one who would recognise me.

To whom did you talk about the hookup? How did they react? No one

Was this a consensual and/or wanted experience for you? For your partner? It was, slightly. I didn’t really want him to come in to the cubicle but I was figured there was nothing else that could be done when I had already given him the signal, that it would be unfair.

Do you regret this hookup? If so, why? Definitely. We could have been caught and been in trouble. More importantly, I don’t know who the man is. I have heard that a lot of junkies hang around in those toilets, so it could have been absolutely anyone. I could have caught anything, I was and still am so ashamed and embarrassed. I don’t know what I was thinking in the moment.

What was the BEST thing about this hookup? How about the WORST? Has this hookup changed the way you think about casual sex, sexuality, or yourself in general? Best thing was the thrill of doing it with a casual stranger. Worst thing is the fear afterwards that I endangered my life and could have caught a disease from this experience that would affect my life.

It hasn’t turned me off casual sex, but I wouldn’t want to do it without someone I don’t know, someone who I haven’t even talked to and that I’ve just met. I’d rather know who I was getting involved with, and use protection.

Regarding my sexuality, it has made me think that if I am interested in getting with males, I need to be the dominant one. I prefer receiving than giving.

It made me feel that I am quite a selfish person who would take a lot of risks for a thrill. It made me feel very seedy, and dirty, but also made me feel as if I was a thrill-seeker.

All things considered, how POSITIVE was this experience? Not at all positive
All things considered, how NEGATIVE was this experience? Very negative

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